I think depression has killed my spark...
Even though I am working through the things depressing me and starting to find closure. I feel like the fire within me is gone too. Snuffed to not even a spark. I'm not even looking forward to the big events that l love visiting so much. They are just there on the agenda. And I will go there because I know I will regret not going. But there is no enthusiasm about them right now. No anticipation nor excitement.
Idk if it is because I have been visiting that next upcoming event for over 10 years, or if it is because these were events I used to visit with friends but they don't come anymore...idk I just don't feel any excitement or anticipation and that's scary. Looking forward to these events used to cheer me up a lot..
I'm sorry to all the (very few) people wo love me for my bubbly enthusiasm, infectious excitement, and passionate personality...that fire is gone...

#scary #pranks #scares
https://youtu.be/K3REtTBRLX0

#scary #haunted #poltergeist #fear #ghost
https://youtu.be/nYq8E2XsmGc

Scary enough? :D

Had a very busy past few days,so much going on. Finally day off went to see Heretic with my best friend ,interesting film overall but not really my style of horror. hit up a few stores at the mall before the movie (giant mall with the theatre attached),worked on some new music and wrote riffs tonight that i need to edit but overall the results will be worth it. and had the WEIRDIST encounter with my crazy neighbor, few weeks ago he slammed his door so loud it shook my unit when i was just sitting outside on my porch drinking water and reading (guess he hates readers ??),had to write him a letter that i wasnt going to possess his dog or hurt him in anyway (cuz I'm so scary..i guess ??),after coming back from my walk tonight ran into him again, I always have my headphones in usually (was listening to Behexen) and he just PULLS his dog in as i walk by, the dog whimpers in FEAR of me because i'm just an awful person (yes this is actually what he thinks) we also communicate by slamming doors extremely violently i really can't wait until he leaves, or gets kicked out, it will never stop with him.

Finally getting to do something I've always wanted to do...

Make clothes :)

Making some crop tops for a give away on my design Instagram <3

I've always helped others with their designs, or done things for others to use, but this time I'm making stuff that I wanted to for my own brand.

Hex Girls crop tops to scare the hoes

Gonna make a "scary hoes, scaring hoes" shirt next ong

But fr fr happy that I get to finally do something for me :D

#scary #ghosts #Poltergeist #scarycomps
https://youtu.be/tQ1y4KtU-kA

Since I'm probably not the only one "having a day" I thought Id share some positivity.. *gasp* Scary I know lol. Be afraid people going to spread a little sunshine on these shadows here for a bit lol.

i am my own parasite scary.

Just being cute for no reason, & a little bit scary. Instagram.com/XZanthiaADVENTURE