really in the mood for an classic trilogy run :D

Today really was a Terrible day. Not only did I work longer than it is legal (again). I also wasn't very focussed and did a lot of mistakes in my lab work...I don't think a blanket and c-drama will fix this day..-

I really need to dump & vent some emotions rn...humor me...
The fact that I am still very moody and don't really feel like talking to people one on one kinda contriubted to this day being shitty as lab work forces me to interact with my colleauges more than documentation. and I really don't feel like talking lately.
It's probably hard to get....While I do have a lot of things troubling me and I do need to get them off my chest, I dont have the energy nor the desire to open a 1 on 1 converstaion about it, and even less desire to talk about the world and smalltalk.
It's not like there are no people I could go to if I needed talking. There are. And I know I can go to them anytime. I just don't want to. Bc I don't want to have any interactive converstaions at the moment, if not necessary. Then I'd rahter passively dump it somewhere like here and get if off my chest. It is often not about wanting advice or needing re-assurance. It is mostly just wanting it out...
Just posting it in an anyways dead place gives me the freedom to decide on my own if and when I get advice or others opinion on it. If I need to I'll read comments, If I dont wan't to I just don't.
Is that weird??
I think I am like this because I have always been the Listeing and giving advice friend and not the sharing and wanting advice one.
I'm just used to being that way and found my ways to vent emotions...

#mood #apocalypse

Goth...What an absolute shitpile of a week. Not once did I get to finish work in time to go to that one shop that only opens from 2-6pm (and of course doen't open on weekends)
There was a LOT of pressure on me this week due to some bitch deadlines and I kinda woke up with a bad mood kalready...I didn't really want to talk if not necessary but my co-worker tried to do small talk all the time in the lab... He doesn't get the headpones hint. At some point I just pretended to not hear him and I kinda feel bad for doing that...
I'm just glad it's friday.. Finally time to shut the dors and dissociate...

Tomorrow is a big cosplay event that I'm going to. But for some reason I am not as excited about it as usual, some things happened that kinda ruined the mood for me...
Some of the friends that Im always looking forward to see on this event are not coming and I feel that this kinda took a huge part of the fun factor. On top of it this cosplay season is kinda jinxed for me in general. didn't get con tickets, some events were cancelled idk...all kills the mood. Hope next year will be better.

#music #retro
The BIOSHOCK freaks will understand my mood...
https://youtu.be/rMqHEfD8xpg

Dune 2 was really good. We elevated my mood.

Big mood.

Saatana.

Not in a good mood at all.
I hate my mood swings...