a bit of a rant here. So as most of you know I'm stil at war with my Nighbor, he claimed that he "cant get his work done" because of my loud music and other BS. He also is gender confused and claims to BE a women when clearly he's not. (he also insulted and put down women during the argument.) Also when i tried to de-escalate the situation, he just yelled at me that i had to move out and that i didn't like him. (some of us are busy and have active musical creative lives like myself) The creepy part is he hit on me too and that freaked me out. so I'm going to keep on being the great SATANIST and be EVIL as I can be from now on because that is who I am. cheers !

Yesterday my little dragon officially became my emotional support companion.
I’ve been meaning to do this for years but money has always been out of reach or just too little.
I’ve have my girl for 8 years and all she’s ever done is take care of me too, loved me in times I didn’t feel loved, taken away my anxiety and been my best friend.
Here’s to many more years Sephera. You are my forever

I think there will never not be a dead rat in my freezer...
Last weekend I just buried the other two, that had died few months ago. Now Hela, passed as well :(
Is it bad that I'm just hoping the last one of the pack will die soon too?
She is all alone now. I hate keeping them alone because they are social animals but I cannot buy new ones because she is quite terretorial and even attack me if I come too close to her nest (Of course the feisty one lives longest. I tell ya spite is the secret to longevity). I think socializing her with strangers wil just be addtional stress for her she already has cancer and with cancer prone breeds, stress can make it worse. The vet said she'll probably not live too long either and as long as she eats and has no pain i sould make sure she has a good time here. Another reason I can't get her new companions is that I want to get males again and upgrade the cage to a bioactive setting before that before that.
Anywas Goodby my sweet Hela you were a timid one but gentle and sweet you will be missed. Rest well. <3 T_T

https://youtu.be/pB-vtKpuOkg

"I hope you fucking drown, I'm not fucking around" perfect lyrics for my ex that cheated on me. She used to love to go to the beach. That's where she cheated on me too.

"My heart... it feels like my chest can barely contain it. Like it's trying to escape because it doesn't belong to me anymore. It belongs to you. And if you wanted it, I'd wish for nothing in exchange - no gifts. No goods. No demonstrations of devotion. Nothing but knowing you loved me too. Just your heart, in exchange for mine." ~ Stardust

I swear I'm ready
Then I'm not.


I'm sick of me too

i reported a load of rape videos so of course im gonna need a group of women to help me watch my step... the males think they can one up us on everything .... so theres an army of poeple that are prob after me and i need the girls that dont want the rape me too bullshit to fucking happen cause theres rape in the ARMIRES that we have and its so sickening cause all men rape murder cheat steal and lie and im told to watch my step.. which ive been trying to my whole fucking fucking life and its fucking bullshit and i hate it so fucking much...the male doctors dish out meds and so do women doctors with every fucking bullshit in the book... everyone is crazy with tons of bullshit.. why are you gonna have doctors dishing out meds to get onto the streets cause people will snort about just any type of drug.. they will do about just any type of drug... i think my dads drug dealer and my mom can be found as the one trying to get away with killing me or something cause umm the april fools joke i pulled on her ive already appoligzied but its like a never ending war with them if they want to kill me so badly i shouldnt have to pay for cigs i gen love my mom but my mom needs help.. not me.. i wish i never learned how to shave because men dont deserve clean shave which is really awkard ... for most. i think when you like learn your place at your house or whatever it is kinda weird at birth and shit.. like really weird as fuck.. and im not wanting sex with my brother like ever... ever.. but idk man,.. i feel like once you leave like... your whole damn house that everything itself becomes more abuse and abuse and abuse.. and its just bullshit... real bullshit,,, of course i love my mom so damn much... but the killer is usually right underneath your nose and knowing shit about the porn indi i just like theres from and back doors and i much rather be alive but i just dont want to be reycled so damn much and for the people that are manogomas its kinda like umm i gurss wortth it but to me theres too many people in the house dying even straight colors to think that people in this world are ok.. i mean i dont even know anymore with the bullshit i know about the world.. like i understand we all look at porn and such but its really stupid fucking bullshit... like really badly... i mean i wanted to be a pornstar when i grew up... but i didnt want to simp for men and men are like well WHY THE FUCK NOT... and umm im tired of men,,, i dont want to have to simp to men at all. and idc if they think they build everything.. i just know that life is a gamble and and we all can very well die with alot of bullshit if we dont... you know... fuck around i mean the shit with the lombatoires in the world at hospitals are going crazy cause the rods up you noses are for sure gonna kill everyone...

#Warframe took me a few years but hey haha

https://youtu.be/HDNGyseFnnE

Been a while. Missed me? No? Good. I didn't miss you either. Have some Devildriver in your lugholes whilst I raid your cupboards for some Tootise Rolls