I think I'm starting to have a creative burnout due to regular burnout...

Somehow my latest "Just-for-fun" cosplay project that I just did for the sake of fun not for an upcoming convention or contest has become my "Frustration-Project". And that sucks!
The wig I'm styling for it is not making any progress and I have been working on and off on it for 2 Months...I never worked on such a complex wig re-styling with constructing a detachable Ponytail before, so I expected it to take longer... But whats frustratiing is that I dont't get to, or can't motivate myself to work on it for more than one hour per week on average. Which is really frustrating!
I really want to finis it to start on other things...I know if I just put it aside for other things I will never pick it up again to finish it.
I don't want it to end up on the unfinished project graveyard... =(

Survived probably one of the busiest shifts iv'e had in a long time today. its all cold and snowy now so its bringing everyone out in droves, fingers hurt from alot of guitar practice last night so have to rest before tomorrow's practice. hoping to get more patches on the jacket and vest when i can,had some VERY interesting interactions with a few customers outside of work ,some "i'm going to try and be goth to try and fit in but im really not" girl didn't speak to me when i was talking with her and her mom i bet because she think's she's high class or something and better than me,yep....also some girl approached me after i left in the snow covered parking lot a few nights ago (by yelling at me lol) we shook hands and i introduced myself, could possibly be another relationship after idk HOW many years ? We'll see...not going to expect anything though, would be nice to not be alone again during this winter.

Today really was a Terrible day. Not only did I work longer than it is legal (again). I also wasn't very focussed and did a lot of mistakes in my lab work...I don't think a blanket and c-drama will fix this day..-

I really need to dump & vent some emotions rn...humor me...
The fact that I am still very moody and don't really feel like talking to people one on one kinda contriubted to this day being shitty as lab work forces me to interact with my colleauges more than documentation. and I really don't feel like talking lately.
It's probably hard to get....While I do have a lot of things troubling me and I do need to get them off my chest, I dont have the energy nor the desire to open a 1 on 1 converstaion about it, and even less desire to talk about the world and smalltalk.
It's not like there are no people I could go to if I needed talking. There are. And I know I can go to them anytime. I just don't want to. Bc I don't want to have any interactive converstaions at the moment, if not necessary. Then I'd rahter passively dump it somewhere like here and get if off my chest. It is often not about wanting advice or needing re-assurance. It is mostly just wanting it out...
Just posting it in an anyways dead place gives me the freedom to decide on my own if and when I get advice or others opinion on it. If I need to I'll read comments, If I dont wan't to I just don't.
Is that weird??
I think I am like this because I have always been the Listeing and giving advice friend and not the sharing and wanting advice one.
I'm just used to being that way and found my ways to vent emotions...

Y en la pista una pareja
Se vuelve a enamorar

Un sabroso y buen danzón
A media luz el corazón
Y en el kumbala todo es
Música y pasión

https://youtu.be/erp0bg7LrkI?si=NyThGSRt5m8XGsgE

Vittun krapula nyt.

In case you wonder how I fix my hangovers:

I've never paid for premium anything, but...

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KanegVORJYE

My hair is thick and curly. Shave it once per month as I do during the recent years [brutal/Breaking Bad]? Should I have a ponytail again [Jason Momoa but needs giganitc patience]? Have a Hemsworth haircut like in Extraction 2 [too mainstream but still epic]? Classic Mohawk? Need your opinions people.

After a certain point bands like Slaughter to Prevail become monotonous and gimmicky. Like dude where's the groove and the melody? Why bother having lyrics when you can't understand anything? Heavy for the sake of heavy just leads to audio fatigue.

#party #parties #orgies #orgy #pdaddy
I cannot remember anything from the specific night...