Hi, and welcome to my blog ig. First blog to be spesific

So yeah, todays date is October 20 and at the moment when I am right now starting writing this; the clock stands on 18:27(I probably spelled that wrong, mb gang(mb stands for my bad if u didn't know what that swag shortening stand for allready)) and I'm frying my plan burger in the kitchen while vibing to WHY by NF which is playing in the background, and what's gonna be the main subject today/this evening is that I'd say my classmates were real assholes today :D. Nvm(nevermind, another swag shortening) my burger's ready with only ketchup and cheese. Great stuff! My speaker just died. Not great stuff >:C. Anyway, before we get to why my classholes were so obviously assholes today (I realised I accidentaly wrote classholes and I found it funny so I'm gonna keep it in this time), am I just gonna explain as short and simple as possible about who I am. My bad guys. I'm a 17yr-old(graduate hs spring 2028) swedish, autistic guy who has allways struggled in school, and my useless social skills have never made any of that much easier. I live alone in my own apartment that's really close to my school during the school terms, and a bunch of other people at my school also live in the same building or in other apartment buildings in the area, since our little school is almost positioned in the middle of nowhere. To put it short, I study a- nature, horse focused program. I don't think there's much more that needs to be said before talking about today.

SO, even though I somehow *sideeye*  wouldn't allways call my classmates assholes, this is a whole different situation. So in (swedish)SE-class we allready knew that we were gonna have to do our speeches and presentations from earlier lessons that are are partly about discussioning and arguing today (even though I also knew that I did absolutely not have mine finished yet), but before that we were gonna do this part where our teacher would read out an opinion and we were supposed to walk into one of the corners of the room depending on if we agreed with the opinion or not. So this was a task where we were supposed to say what we thought from our own perspective and why we walked to the agree-corner, the disagree-corner or the idk-corner. So I allready know that my class don't like people who explain stuff in any more words than 5 but I literally just answered the question/did what the damn task was. What the hel1 do you want me to do?? At least 4 times did I hear "HEre we go agai-...!" the second I opened my mouth, I don't even know how many annoyed sighs(but if it were just those I'd be able to ignore it) and 3 times did I see one of my cl(ass)mates mockingly imitate me with their lips and hands. One of the thing that pisssed me the fvck of the most was how literally just DUMB and immature some of them acted about me having a different opinion on one of the questions/opinions. The opinion went like this "I think there should always be just one who rules", implying just one who rules in friendgroups, groupprojects & workplaces, and I chose to stand in the disagree-corner. The thing is; I ofcourse don't have a problem with people seeing stuff rom different standpoints, having different opinions, or not being able to see from my perspective, because that's just how things are, but the fact that when I was explaining why I had the opinion and thought the way I did, 3 of the people who were standing in the Idk/inbetween-corner kept on interupting me and say that the manager will always be the one that rules in the end at workplaces, LIKE I KNOW, BUT THEY DIDN'T SAY "I think there is always just one that rules in the end at work" NO! NO, THAT WAS NOT WHAT IT SAID. IT CLEARLY SAID "I think there should always just one that rules"! And when I tried explaining that to them they mockingly laughed like if I was the joke, unterupted me and said that I THOUGHT LIKE THEM AND WAS LIKE CONFUSED OR SOMETHING. LIKE WHAT DO YOU MEEEEAAAANNNN?? It's one thing acting stupid, but it's a very different thing to use 'master suppression techniques'(left the link on the term so people can search it up if interested).

And I know you might think I'm being dramatic, but it really fvcking hurt and makes me angry as hell when people acts like if I'm a joke for wanting to explain- or knowing something, it makes me feel like the stupid one, and even though I'm trying my best to be kind and have a nice attitude towards this class, and don't wanna call them that stupid, so was it very clear that that was what they were, or at very least acted like they were -and therefor if you ask me- get to be treated as stupid.

Seriously, sorry, but I'm SO not sorry.

I absolutely hate how vulnerable I can be at school, especialy as a guy, and I hate that I react to anger with tears instead of a firm angry voice.

Anyways sorry for ranting but when we were done I just walked out of my classroom, got down stairs to get a glass of water and some fresh air, and then I stayed outside the outdoor. Idk like maybe 20-30 min later my teacher came to see where I've gone and told me that we were gonna have do our presentations now but hel1 nahh, I was pissed with tears in my goofy ah eyes and was not gonna meet those faces again today so after the teacher had went in again, I went home. Only problem though; my charger, school-laptop and hoodie are still in the classroom, but that was ofcourse not really the first priority, right. 

My bad for ranting about, gang. Thx for reading if you're still here though :3

Be cringe, be free, and all that!

Hope to see u again fellow reader(s)!  xD