Well, hello dear visitor!
Here you have come across a profile of a serious lateral thinker haha!
But well, first a little information about myself as such (which could make potential conversations easier ;) :
I am an IT professional with heart and soul in this area, both privately and job-related.
I am always interested in the latest innovations and changes in the educational world.
Standstill is dead
Furthermore, I am personally very interested in;
-Listening to music but especially the compilation of different music tracks on top of each other (I'm actually a hobby DJ but the project is currently paused)
-I enjoy visiting and discovering ruins and ancient cultural sites.
-You can also see me at most local music events (when I have time ;P)
-Cosplaying
-Read/write poems (very few people know this because I publish very little among contacts or similar)
-I like playing PC games, but mostly at higher levels of difficulty (I like the challenge :D)
-Drawing (but not painting)
Careful: Basically, I find myself a difficult conversation partner.
When I stop writing or something similar, it's never meant in a bad or negative way, but rather I've usually lost focus on something or am taking a break from social media.
I'm not a fan of ghosting, so when I have a problem with someone I usually address it directly and consistently.
Here you have come across a profile of a serious lateral thinker haha!
But well, first a little information about myself as such (which could make potential conversations easier ;) :
I am an IT professional with heart and soul in this area, both privately and job-related.
I am always interested in the latest innovations and changes in the educational world.
Standstill is dead
Furthermore, I am personally very interested in;
-Listening to music but especially the compilation of different music tracks on top of each other (I'm actually a hobby DJ but the project is currently paused)
-I enjoy visiting and discovering ruins and ancient cultural sites.
-You can also see me at most local music events (when I have time ;P)
-Cosplaying
-Read/write poems (very few people know this because I publish very little among contacts or similar)
-I like playing PC games, but mostly at higher levels of difficulty (I like the challenge :D)
-Drawing (but not painting)
Careful: Basically, I find myself a difficult conversation partner.
When I stop writing or something similar, it's never meant in a bad or negative way, but rather I've usually lost focus on something or am taking a break from social media.
I'm not a fan of ghosting, so when I have a problem with someone I usually address it directly and consistently.
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It seems a shadow of misfortune follows me. I've come to expect it: a fleeting moment of light is always chased away by a familiar storm, pulling me back under with brutal force.
What truly unnerves me is the silence within. The emotional echo of these disasters has faded to nothing. I am a dry well—events that should summon a flood of tears now barely register. Is this resilience, or is it erosion? My psyche, to save itself, seems to have severed the wires, leaving me feeling like an spectator in my own tragicomedy, muttering, 'This can't be real.'
I observe my life as through a thick, silent pane of glass. The impact is muted, the meaning distant. I am a curious stranger to my own apathy, asking, 'What happens when you simply have nothing left to feel?'
Is this emptiness making me stronger, or is it the void before the collapse? I built these walls stone by stone for protection, but now they encircle me. They keep the world's anguish out. The question is no longer about weathering the storm, but whether I am fortified within a sanctuary, or entombed within a cell of my own making.It seems a shadow of misfortune follows me. I've come to expect it: a fleeting moment of light is always chased away by a familiar storm, pulling me back under with brutal force. What truly unnerves me is the silence within. The emotional echo of these disasters has faded to nothing. I am a dry well—events that should summon a flood of tears now barely register. Is this resilience, or is it erosion? My psyche, to save itself, seems to have severed the wires, leaving me feeling like an spectator in my own tragicomedy, muttering, 'This can't be real.' I observe my life as through a thick, silent pane of glass. The impact is muted, the meaning distant. I am a curious stranger to my own apathy, asking, 'What happens when you simply have nothing left to feel?' Is this emptiness making me stronger, or is it the void before the collapse? I built these walls stone by stone for protection, but now they encircle me. They keep the world's anguish out. The question is no longer about weathering the storm, but whether I am fortified within a sanctuary, or entombed within a cell of my own making.
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Do you know that feeling when, after a good time, the world comes crashing down even harder than expected?
I wish it were just the blues after one of the best times I've ever had, but somehow the shit just keeps piling up every day.
Not only do I have a lot of work to do, but I also have to compensate for three people, and instead of support, I only get statements that downplay the actual workload, and I just end up angry, exhausted, and “done” with my job.
On top of that, there is a current family disaster that I am currently unable to deal with mentally, so I am completely withdrawing.
Unfortunately, it is so severe that it completely paralyzes me.
I want to be there for my family, but I can't.
My head is screaming to escape, but I don't know where to go anymore.
With every breath I take, it feels as if the air is made of lead.Do you know that feeling when, after a good time, the world comes crashing down even harder than expected? I wish it were just the blues after one of the best times I've ever had, but somehow the shit just keeps piling up every day. Not only do I have a lot of work to do, but I also have to compensate for three people, and instead of support, I only get statements that downplay the actual workload, and I just end up angry, exhausted, and “done” with my job. On top of that, there is a current family disaster that I am currently unable to deal with mentally, so I am completely withdrawing. Unfortunately, it is so severe that it completely paralyzes me. I want to be there for my family, but I can't. My head is screaming to escape, but I don't know where to go anymore. With every breath I take, it feels as if the air is made of lead.
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Had been at this year's M'era Luna Festival germany and really had a blast again!
I met so many friendly familiar faces and also got to know new people :)
Not sure about what I liked most about it: the bands, the people, the camp, or just the whole atmosphere.
Do you know that clichéd feeling of teenage summer camp blues that is so exaggerated in the media?
Those summer camps where everyone says, “Let's be friends forever”?
I don't know, but that's exactly how I feel right now. As far as I'm concerned, the festival could easily last two days longer .
I'm already looking forward to next year's festival!Had been at this year's M'era Luna Festival germany and really had a blast again! 🖤 I met so many friendly familiar faces and also got to know new people :) Not sure about what I liked most about it: the bands, the people, the camp, or just the whole atmosphere. Do you know that clichéd feeling of teenage summer camp blues that is so exaggerated in the media? Those summer camps where everyone says, “Let's be friends forever”? I don't know, but that's exactly how I feel right now. As far as I'm concerned, the festival could easily last two days longer 😅 . I'm already looking forward to next year's festival! 🥰
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How do you get even more in the mood for an upcoming music festival while also clearing your head to decide on an outfit?
Exactly! By creating a mix for the several-hour drive :DHow do you get even more in the mood for an upcoming music festival while also clearing your head to decide on an outfit? Exactly! By creating a mix for the several-hour drive :D
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Currently busy packing my stuff for the upcoming M'era Luna festival (excited AF btw).
However, I'm completely unsure about one of three outfits
Not sure if I want to wear something more in the trad/punk-goth direction, something more Victorian or just plain basic goth stuff.
Kind of overwhelmed as far as that goes 😵💫
Maybe I could try something completely new, found something lately which just screams 80s styleCurrently busy packing my stuff for the upcoming M'era Luna festival (excited AF btw). However, I'm completely unsure about one of three outfits 😅 Not sure if I want to wear something more in the trad/punk-goth direction, something more Victorian or just plain basic goth stuff. Kind of overwhelmed as far as that goes 😵💫 Maybe I could try something completely new, found something lately which just screams 80s style 🤔
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Just heard it on the news... RIP Ozzy Osbourne 🦇 https://youtu.be/G4nI2V07X6k?si=nyHjH9sJdZZ4y3ye
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https://youtu.be/Q1gZXZNpXHY?si=yO5zT4tRhSnkUaid
I'm really excited about the upcoming weekend and especially to seeing ashbury heights live :Dhttps://youtu.be/Q1gZXZNpXHY?si=yO5zT4tRhSnkUaid I'm really excited about the upcoming weekend and especially to seeing ashbury heights live :D
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Ok, I don't know where I suddenly got the energy from, but somehow I managed to almost finish sewing a top for a cyber-goth outfit for an upcoming music festival this weekend :D
I still had doubts on Saturday that I would be able to finish it by the upcoming weekend, but nope; I suddenly had a good idea for the top of the outfit and the realization worked right away.Ok, I don't know where I suddenly got the energy from, but somehow I managed to almost finish sewing a top for a cyber-goth outfit for an upcoming music festival this weekend :D I still had doubts on Saturday that I would be able to finish it by the upcoming weekend, but nope; I suddenly had a good idea for the top of the outfit and the realization worked right away.
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