https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vzGTdi4xvFU I'll have nothing in the fridge till I go shopping so all I have is green tea once again I take another tablet - my only light For the moment I don't feel it A few missed calls, but I don't care My hair is greasy and it doesn't bother me I'm ugly and broken, please don't look at me Until whenever I disappear Leave me alone, let me finally die Didn't I say that the Cut on my arm was just an accident? Before I could see it, my whole body was scarred For a moment I close my eyes Just one moment and the day has passed by - I'm completely empty I don't believe in miracles anymore My "friends" are just strangers and see none of this Even if someone was there for me, they wouldn't get it I'm stressed and I'm not gonna take a break from it I could still do this and that Don't tell me I should smile - why should I? I've got nothing to be proud of, built up for me Got no life to give me a reason to breathe, No family to see it Leave me alone, I'm so tired For so long now I've wanted to just go to sleep for all time Don't wake me up, I'll take a bite of the poisoned apple I'm swaying like I'm in a dream - a nightmare High up on the balcony, standing in The wind and wondering, What would happen next I wouldn't fly I always used to just listen to music all day It gave me new strength from morning till evening But each song is now part of what devours me so much Leave me alone, let me finally die Didn't I say that the Cut on my arm was just an accident? Before I could see it, my whole body was scarred For a moment I close my eyes Just one moment and the day has passed by - I'm completely empty I don't believe in anything anymore This day is just like every day, constantly whiling my life away, always asking myself, "Is it nearly over?" My wounds won't heal It won't be over for a while yet I should just go Yeah Yeah, I should finally go

Ok, guys. I have another inquiry for you all. Earlier I called the guy I like, and he's stressed enough that he's basically on full shut down mode. He couldn't even say hello when he picked up the phone. If he's so stressed that he can't even say hello why bother answering the phone?

living this life... it's a full time job, smh #stressed

I was going to wait to post this but whatever. So i got down to the venue tonight and right as i was going to show my ticket i saw a bunch of people walk out, I MISSED the WHOLE concert. after working my butt off i missed seeing GWAR and NekroGoblincon....so so so disappointed. I ended up being kind to a fan and taking there picture for them, I was all concerned/stressed about seeing my EX walk out of the venue but that was not the case (YAY !!!!) went over to my favorite Japanese joint Moto-I for Ramen and sake (Leftovers included) Going to sleep, Another grueling shift tomorrow....

Took Pandora to the vet and she is fine. She did manage to open her stitches tho, She received a clean up, stapled and antibiotics. I am relieved that she is safe but still so stressed about her eating and drinking. Once these 14 days are over I will finally breathe.

First time I’ve had a pet not handle a surgery well. I’m massively stressed out now bc my cat is licking her spay incision and I have put a collar on her but I’m afraid now she’s not eating or drinking when I’m not around to watch her. She ate a little food and I watered it down a lil to make sure for certain she is getting water and immediately after she went back to licking herself. For 10 days I am going to be a nervous ass wreck.

Ugh..whenever mom gets stressed/anxious abt ppl coming to visit we have to super deep clean the house..put things away that we might use..she just gets super ansty..then upset..then just plain pissed off..right now we r in the super ansty phase...ugh

I think i must be stressed and lack of sleep..i feel like imma throw up..gonna try n sleep