This woman never disappoints me when it comes to making songs that speak to my soul and tickle my brain I love her music and I'm so grateful she pursuited a musical career even though she was forbidden to...
Her music always comforts me darkest times.
yhttps://youtu.be/x7Pw91G__GA?si=TPBbFzitPQDB0gpR

#Trump #Donald_Trump #President #USA #POTUS
I love him...I just love him...

#book #books #booklover #bookworm #Dark_Academia

https://www.timesnownews.com/lifestyle/books/features/10-dark-academia-books-that-are-both-intellectual-and-dangerously-addictive-article-151477489

Hey LeftBehind, you haven't posted in a while. If you're looking for another red-blooded male to manipulate. I love the abuse!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZwI02OHtZTg

Living right next to a church has advantages and disadvantages.
On the one hand, you have a fantastic view of old European architecture from the kitchen, and I especially love looking at the stained glass windows reflecting in the sun in the morning.

But sleeping in on Sundays and public holidays (especially on the very Christian holidays) is a complete no-go. Especially when the damned bell is on the bedroom side and rings through the roof just in time for mass in the morning...

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=zmsmcgBYd5k

Loved Tiffys Entrance!!!

I've done some reflecting today. I think I have unconciously been spiraling down the depression spiral since November with some high phases re-locating the issue in a very self destructive behavioral patterns. that has led to a distorted vision of myself and my personality. Now have a major setback in my self view and I hate many things about myself that I worked so hard on learning to love. Now I need to re-learn to love these things about myself.
How did it even come so far without ne noticing...

Somehow it has become hard for me to enjoy my socia shutdown alone time. Sometimes I just need to recharge my social batteries and shut myself in for a weekend doing things I enjoy alone like painting and sewing. And sometimes I need several weekends on a row.. But lately I often feel guilty doing this. Today too...Especially if others have asked if I wanna do something or join a get together. Even if they are understanding bc they are also introverted and get it. I feel like they just said it to be nice but are actually upset and think that I am selfish...
But a the same time I hate not having so much time for my hobbies anymore so I look forward to be able to spend an entire weekend on them. Is it selfish to prioritize this over social interactions? I have picked up all these hobbies in the past as way fix the loneliness I experienced for always being the odd one with very little friends. Now I love art more than people because it was always there for me when people weren't. I think thats why it makes me feel guilty now that there are people who want to spend time with me.
Lately I have been struggleing with this thought a lot...but I really need to recharge in order to not completely explode or break down.