What are these Merits for? lol

SO yeah.... if you get weirdly cryptic on me,I use the block feature and I dont usually have to use that often lol xD Guess was just one of those days lol. Hope you all had a gorgeous Saturday so far!

I'm still around just complicated lol. Been talking to a friend thats been around more which is a lot of fun so as much as I might not be around that doesn't mean I will let you sexies forget how beautiful you are,how much the wold needs you and that you are invaluable. Keep your heads up yeah some days are shit but ya know... doesnt mean you won't get through it. Please don't give up.

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I just finished editing my newest music video. I’m just uploaded it :-) I’d love to know what you think, took me about three days.

As always leaving comments directly on YouTube is appreciated because it makes me look really cool to other people and then I feel like I might be cool :-) lol

So I know its been a hot minute since I tortured you sexy lot. I found out recently a bunch of friends of mine are pregnant ALL with boys which requires me to baby shop lol. I got issues lol. I've also been super busy with other projects and things at home. I know we all got shit going on and some days are better than others and I know sometimes life is hard as heel and frustrating as f*ck. I do not know what you are going through and I don't know what traumas you have endured.

I do know whatever you HAVE endured by others is not your fault. If your mind is saying you are worthless, it is lying. If your mind is telling you that you are a burden, it is lying. It is so easy to pull yourself a part because you feel less than but I promise you that you .... you lovely person,regardless of your gender, sexuality, ethnicity, religions belief or anything else, you are magically and beautifully made. So just for today... treat yourself kind.

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Anyone have a good Horchata recipe? I mean I can google but like one thats freaking authentic lol.

When the highlight of your day has two parts.. a text messge from a friend and a carseat for someone you know expecting a baby lol.

Alright folks its after 2am and I have had both sugar and caffeine and yesterday was a $hit day so lets have some fun.. What the heck are you all into? Whats a hobby you have? Mine apparently has been pissing people off lol. No seriously I write a little.. not well but its my thing lol. What about you?

LOL IM watching my inbox cause my friends at work and were chatting during his non busy moments lol. Love when my friends are chill like that not to mention hes fun company lol.