Somehow it has become hard for me to enjoy my socia shutdown alone time. Sometimes I just need to recharge my social batteries and shut myself in for a weekend doing things I enjoy alone like painting and sewing. And sometimes I need several weekends on a row.. But lately I often feel guilty doing this. Today too...Especially if others have asked if I wanna do something or join a get together. Even if they are understanding bc they are also introverted and get it. I feel like they just said it to be nice but are actually upset and think that I am selfish...
But a the same time I hate not having so much time for my hobbies anymore so I look forward to be able to spend an entire weekend on them. Is it selfish to prioritize this over social interactions? I have picked up all these hobbies in the past as way fix the loneliness I experienced for always being the odd one with very little friends. Now I love art more than people because it was always there for me when people weren't. I think thats why it makes me feel guilty now that there are people who want to spend time with me.
Lately I have been struggleing with this thought a lot...but I really need to recharge in order to not completely explode or break down.

Of course, it was only a matter of time before spiders started appearing in my apartment as the temperatures got warmer...
With my arachnophobia, it really sucks, especially as it's currently exactly the type of spider I react most severely to... And instead of me managing to catch them with the greatest of gritted teeth, they jump away and hide in my clothes in the closet in my bedroom...
Now I'm sitting barricaded on my sofa, "can't" go to sleep and facing the hardest phobia program (heavy breathing to itching all over my body).
It's going to be a really great night and I know that the weekend is completely ruined because of it...
Why do I have to have this severe extreme phobia? Can't it somehow be gentler and "better distributed"?

I'm so awakened...in women's sports, I always root for the chick with the hairiest legs and cutest Adam's Apple.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tNRZuNnqnlo

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Broken city? More like broken country! Amirite, fellow Anti-Trumpers?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OiNG5q6ewM4

You guessed it. It was Oswald with a 6.5 mm Carcano rifle from a range any Marine marksman could hit, even a moving target traveling at slow speed. No second gunman needed; no elaborate plot other than a disturbed commie with delusions of grandeur trying to secure his name in the history books.

https://apnews.com/article/kennedy-assassination-documents-release-trump-c56ed5075b38af809f36a6388797d4ca

Evil.... Has awakened

Taken from the comment section. "The 80´s wasn't a decade, it was an emotion. The iconic voices of some singers are just... unforgettable." I couldn't agree more.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cFH5JgyZK1I