Another day of endless boredom at work. Being underwhelmed/underchallenged and having condescending colleagues is an awful combination. I'm developing the worst imposter syndrome and start believing that I am on the sidelines because I'm useless. I want least Year back I'd rather have the stress and project burden because that at least feels productive and successful.
I'm really work depressed lately. I'm seriously considering of looking for a new job...maybe do phD after all maybe that's the sign I was waiting for.

Nothing is worse for a highly intelligent and gifted person to be under-challenged and underwhelmed....

Today, I came home from work crying because I realised how underchallenged and boring my work currently is. My expertise is currently not being used because customer projects come in slow and don't get to the downstream processing/purification part (I'm a specialist for protein pruification). I don't get many other opportunities to show my skills and knowledge and only do some minor backup tasks like writing working instructions...Nothing about my work currenly feels rewaring and chellengeing. I am a scientist, I love the try and error and the challenge! I thrive in that. I literally work best with stress and being overloaded with work than with being underwhelmed...
On top of it I'm gettin really bad imposter syndrome because of not being able to show my expertise while my colleagues currenlty thrive and get ever opportunity to show their knowledge and expert fields. We got a new teamlead in march and so far I feel like I could not show off/prove my skille and knowledge to him while the others could. I feel like I'm standing in the shadows sometimes even being actively pushed back into them. Like a tool put in a shelf not neede for now collecting dust.
It's incredibly frustrating and deressing for me because I am a scientist by heart I love my profession...

Now my overthinking brain gets even to the point where I'm asking myself if they are boring me out on purpose, so I leave the company on my own accord and they don't have to fire me, because they can't without a reason....
I'm more and more thinking of actually looking for a different posititon... Maybe I'll apply for a pHD after all...

White soccer moms make me nervous and I'll tell you why. I was perusing through the avocado section at the grocery today and this blonde Aryan poster woman wearing yoga pants and drinking sparking water taps me on the shoulder and asks me if the fruits were ripe. I said yea, but at my age they hang lower and are more robust than what you're used to. Tried to be friendly, but now I'm barred from store and her husband has threatened to meet me out in public when I least expect it. You gentiles sure a a contentious bunch!

i fucking hate you shitposter yeah i said it

Finally got my Dragged Into Sunlight Boxset,I just opened it right after I got home,it sadly didn't include a poster flag but I got a limited edition metal pin instead. Looking forward to listening to the LP sometime soon....

It look so glorious
but at what price...I'm pretty sure the infamous Horst Lichter will come to get me tonight As I committed a crime. The picture I found was not just a fancy looking mediocre frame with a cheap 80's print inside. It is a professionally framed lithography, I think. That was probably made only in a limited amount and there was a 89,- written in pencil on the back presumably the price. The frame also seems Handmade and probably cost about the same (Yes I watched way too much "Bares für Rares" to know this).
And what did I do? I put a 5€ poster from 2009 inside.
Ofc I keep the 80's Lithography in there too, to keep it safe...

Aaaahhh the trash gods blessed me!!! Today I found the perfect frame to frame one of my old Victoria Frances posters!I have been searching online for a frame for a while now (I grew out of just taping the posters on the wall. Guess I officially reached adulthood now ) And there it was sitting on the street next to a "To giveaway" box! Trash gods had terrific timing today! This made my day!!!

Remember valid posters. It doesn't matter what's been posted, it's who posted it that matters. Upvote at your own bias!

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