I'm having an extremely shitty day. days of work for the bin because the detection failed. This project is being such a bitch. Great.. running on overtime again and for what it's not even giving me good results. I am so pissed by this. I can forget about my Hobbies and sports again. I'll just go to bed what's the point of having a life anyway. I just hate that this stupid company has such a major impact on my private life. More and more I envy the people who were laid off. Because they don't have to carry the burden of our leadership's incompetence anymore.

I'm sinking more and more into one of my sleep escapism-depressions again. Everything is so discouraging and seems so hopeless....

I can barely get myself to leave the bed lately. I lack any motivation and elan to do anything.
Perpetually trapped in task paralysis.

On workdays I push myself to still give 110% despite constantly asking "what am I doing it for its not like it's fruitful for me". Work drains me so much I can't find the energy to look for new jobs after hours.
And on Weekends I am still drained and barely drag myself out of bed after sleeping for 12hr, then I end up on the couch staring into my phone screen doomscrolling, because I can't get myself to sit on my PC and look for job offers because I know there are barely any that are suitable for me. But pursuing my hobbies makes me feel guilty because "I should spend this time on looking for jobs".
So I just sit there on the couch trapped by invisible chains of guilt and discourage while I'm hoping for the unlikely miracle that a Recruiter will find my job profile and it's the perfect match for both sides. And that the world politics wills suddenly be bearable again. But with the current leaders pfft finding the Amber-room again is more likely than having a secure and happy future.
Thats why I keep asking myself: What future am even doing it for?

That PD Department, especially, the Chief, should be sanctioned for allowing terrorists to destroy their cities and businesses and attacking law enforcement in the middle of the night.

Arrest the entire leadership of the city and in the local PD Department.

These sanctuary city politicians complain about federal officers in their cities, far-left agitators comparing the feds to Nazis. News flash, if your leaders wouldn't have harbored illegals, let criminals have free reign, and turned a blind eye to massive fraud and corruption, the feds wouldn't be there in the first place. You made your bed, and now you have to lie in it! With that said, I still believe the heavy handed tactics by some of the federal officers are unwarranted. The intention is admirable, the technique leaves something less than desired. Tragic, but this is the world we now live in.

A few words….

Dear Democrats:

I know you are confused right now. I know you are struggling to comprehend what is happening.

I am happy to explain it to you.

You see, for decades you have persecuted us for holding conventionally American conservative beliefs. You insulted us. You called us "Nazis." You forcibly silenced us in conventional media and social media. You made us scared to speak our beliefs lest we lose our jobs or our friends and families. You de-banked us. You jailed conservative meme makers for free speech. You tried to steal our children in the public schools. You made us sit at our jobs and silently listen to some HR Karen telling us we were all inherently racist, sexist and evil. You pursued our political leaders with illegitimate lawfare right out of some mid-20th Century fascist state. You badgered us at the Thanksgiving table. You made us feel unwelcome in our own country and in our own homes.

We tried turning the other cheek.

We tried reasoning with you.

We tried standing on principle.

We told you that if we finally decided to do to you what you did to us, that you would not like it.

Then your rhetoric got Charlie killed.

Guess what? We have had enough, and we finally decided to do to you what you did to us.

You need to be taught a painful lesson so the USA can be restored to a nation of freedom, justice and liberty.

Do you understand now? It's for your own good.

Love,
Conservative America

"‘No More Diversity Training’: Military Recruitment Skyrockets"

Perhaps with Trump, Vance and Hegseth, young men are again interested in the military. Strength is an appealing quality in leadership. =)

Aaand another worry to keep my anxiety busy...
Not sure if I still have a future in the company im currently employed at. On one hand the leadership team is dropping hints that I will get a more important role next year. Is it a Promotion or at least a raise incoming? and on the other hand there are rumors that the company will be sold and is starting to collapse on it's own...
I don't know what to believe anymore I wish the LT were more transparent on the future of the company. Feels like they just tell me lies so I don't leave now...not to Brag but my Departement is fucked if i didn't pull so much weight. They are lucky I rarely get the flu

#ISS #NASA #SpaceX #contract #Deorbit #Elon_Musk #Musk

https://futurism.com/former-space-leaders-rescue-space-station

They got all our Leaders now theyre desperate for RAVE FUKK TOY BOYS im Willing hahahah

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S52Y9rTYT-s


AAAAh go to sleep & dream about the vast cosmos

Ill be back in the brilliant summer morning. The Night Mystery