I took the "Neopets Personality Quiz" for fun.

I forced myself to work at least 1h every day on that blasted wig and I'm finally making progress in re-arranging all the wefts. I'st starting to be fun again...Soon I' can get to the fun Styling part =) My Plan is to have at least the weft sweing part finished by the end of this year. And since I leave for home on sunday, I have to finish that part this week! Also I found the perfect fabric for the missing cape of this cosplay today!

A colleague at work has expressed the idea of organizing a wreck fest party on the last office day next week.
But one on the most deliberate level: Tetra pack mulled wine and broken pastries.
The lowest level... sounds fun :D

I think I'm starting to have a creative burnout due to regular burnout...

Somehow my latest "Just-for-fun" cosplay project that I just did for the sake of fun not for an upcoming convention or contest has become my "Frustration-Project". And that sucks!
The wig I'm styling for it is not making any progress and I have been working on and off on it for 2 Months...I never worked on such a complex wig re-styling with constructing a detachable Ponytail before, so I expected it to take longer... But whats frustratiing is that I dont't get to, or can't motivate myself to work on it for more than one hour per week on average. Which is really frustrating!
I really want to finis it to start on other things...I know if I just put it aside for other things I will never pick it up again to finish it.
I don't want it to end up on the unfinished project graveyard... =(

#videogames #videogaming
https://www.rockpapershotgun.com/winners-do-drugs-after-all-you-can-rewrite-your-favourite-game-screens-with-this-fun-tool

Let's test in production, they said, it will be fun, they said.

My uncle charlie died. Unexpected. Funeral is Saturday. I guess it isn't setting in yet because I'm not real sad yet.

Funny. 1 chick decides she's not posting anymore. 10 guys mysteriously disappear from the feed.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QfWQiLpi4AU

https://youtu.be/DZOC1QXTQLk?si=M4OUE8ZZkd3tSPkX
This is one of my many many favorite funny songs/videos.

Looong post...(Sorry I just need to dump this emotion somewhere. I don't have any friends left to dump it on...)

I think I don't enjoy spending time with my friend anymore. And this scaes me because I recently lost another good freind due to growing apart. And I don't want to lose this one too... I miss being careless just doing fun things forgetting the wories of the world for a while.

Today was not fun at all. Nothing at all like I imagined or how we planned the day: Just 2 gilfriends doing mundane girl things like shopping going for drinks and having a good time. That was the plan.

No, instead I spend the entire day people pleasing and enduring socializing with one of her old university friends we met, because she seemed to have a good time and I really wanted her to have a good time & fully enjoy this weekend as she has a lot of other troubles at home & I want to be her safe space/happy place.
I tolerated not doing any of the things we had planned, just to end the day with her emotion dumping on me how shitty and disappointing the reunion with her uni freind was and how no one wants to be friends with her if they don't benefit from her in one way or another...So I was the emotional Dumpster...

I am not meaning to blame her but she is doing the same thing to me: I am always her emotional dumpster who listends and gives advice. So she benefits from me. And all the things I want to do, the plans we made before are overthrown. By some kind of drama every time.
Last time we saw each other was the same: It was completely ruined, all plans were overthrown because of her bf making drama and me having to be the should to cry on and fix her up for most of the day. I am sick of spending "quality time" like this. I am always the one who's getting the short end and the disappointment.

And now I'm sitting here crying in frustration and disappointment beacue I really miss having my friend around and I want the carefree time back when we did the things we planned and had a good time: Go shopping and try on silly things for fun, go hiking and fool around in the autumn leaves, forget all troubles, laugh and just enjoy the simplest things in company of our comfort person.
All I want is to have something like this again: