Nothing is attractive about being alive in this timeline anymore.... family and friends just are just leeches that suck me dry emotionally...future doesn't look too rosy with a war next door and major countries being ruled by tyrants, economy is also shit...I barely have energy to keep on. And now the small things about daily life also keep getting more complicated and annoying... It will be a hassle to find a parking spot for my car in future and simultaneously the resident parking passes have become 6x more expensive (and that doesn't ensure that you will get a parking spot). Oh and did I mention that I just learned that I earn 20% less than my colleague in the same position witht the same JD?
I am being exploited on every level and cheated for a happy future...
I was told if I worked hard in school and pursue an academic degree I will not have to worry about the future. I feel that's a lie....our generation is just fucked.

#Spain #energy #infrastructure #power #society #socialization #touch #humans #people #blackout

And the true socialization procedure started...

https://www.fastcompany.com/91326177/this-is-how-it-feels-at-the-beginning-of-the-end-of-the-world

Well... that's one for the life stories.... complete energy black out in Portugal and Spain (and in some places of france and Italy) yesterday..... for at least 12h.....

Peak adulting is when you get a new vacuum and end up doing a hardcore deepclean after finishing a full tabata workout and still have energy left. It is kinda sad that the joys in life have come down to this....I felt too guilty splurging on a new phone to get such a rush, but the vacuum no guilts...
How sad is that.

Muahaha Energydrinks will be cheaper than Coffe. I was always right in other words

When you wear a cute as hell outfit at work but listen ro the hardes Industrial goth Club shit while working because coffee doesn't cut it and you need the energy to get through the rest of this week somehow.

I know that lately I don't really post anything else than music....But listening and discovering unknown bands or deep diving into my old music library is the only thing that I can do while going about my busy days. Lately there is not much time or energy left for other hobbies....
with that... here is what sweetened my evening today while i was driving my brother around...
https://youtu.be/GSz51onJTM8

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Today really was a Terrible day. Not only did I work longer than it is legal (again). I also wasn't very focussed and did a lot of mistakes in my lab work...I don't think a blanket and c-drama will fix this day..-

I really need to dump & vent some emotions rn...humor me...
The fact that I am still very moody and don't really feel like talking to people one on one kinda contriubted to this day being shitty as lab work forces me to interact with my colleauges more than documentation. and I really don't feel like talking lately.
It's probably hard to get....While I do have a lot of things troubling me and I do need to get them off my chest, I dont have the energy nor the desire to open a 1 on 1 converstaion about it, and even less desire to talk about the world and smalltalk.
It's not like there are no people I could go to if I needed talking. There are. And I know I can go to them anytime. I just don't want to. Bc I don't want to have any interactive converstaions at the moment, if not necessary. Then I'd rahter passively dump it somewhere like here and get if off my chest. It is often not about wanting advice or needing re-assurance. It is mostly just wanting it out...
Just posting it in an anyways dead place gives me the freedom to decide on my own if and when I get advice or others opinion on it. If I need to I'll read comments, If I dont wan't to I just don't.
Is that weird??
I think I am like this because I have always been the Listeing and giving advice friend and not the sharing and wanting advice one.
I'm just used to being that way and found my ways to vent emotions...