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  • Putting in genuine effort feels like wasted effort sometimes. It's like people have this standard of movie-like perfection that just doesn't exist naturally, or without proper communication.

    I feel humiliated and depressed, and on top of that I feel like the bad guy for having those emotions.

    I feel like I've put genuine thought and effort into making this person feel important. I've stuck by and listened; really, genuinely listened.

    All of that just to be left waiting, without any kind of heads up, flowers and gifts in hand, all dressed up and wanting to make it a special day.

    Only to be stood up and told that no man has ever or will ever put any kind of real effort.

    Was it not enough effort? Or am I just not a man?

    I let myself be vulnerable enough to want to build a relationship again.

    Even if it wasn't meant as a direct attack, I still feel disrespected.

    I had no foul intentions. And my feeling were true.

    I'm still processing how to feel and respond.

    Idk, I'm just ranting and venting here so I can get it out of my system.

    I didn't think I'd feel this hurt.

    But oh well, love finds a way.

    With someone, at some point in my life. Maybe someone else.

    I'm going to keep putting in that effort, but for someone who appreciates the little gestures as much as the grand gestures.

    I have my friends, I have my dog, and I have myself.

    The rest will work itself out when it's time I guess.
    Putting in genuine effort feels like wasted effort sometimes. It's like people have this standard of movie-like perfection that just doesn't exist naturally, or without proper communication. I feel humiliated and depressed, and on top of that I feel like the bad guy for having those emotions. I feel like I've put genuine thought and effort into making this person feel important. I've stuck by and listened; really, genuinely listened. All of that just to be left waiting, without any kind of heads up, flowers and gifts in hand, all dressed up and wanting to make it a special day. Only to be stood up and told that no man has ever or will ever put any kind of real effort. Was it not enough effort? Or am I just not a man? I let myself be vulnerable enough to want to build a relationship again. Even if it wasn't meant as a direct attack, I still feel disrespected. I had no foul intentions. And my feeling were true. I'm still processing how to feel and respond. Idk, I'm just ranting and venting here so I can get it out of my system. I didn't think I'd feel this hurt. But oh well, love finds a way. With someone, at some point in my life. Maybe someone else. I'm going to keep putting in that effort, but for someone who appreciates the little gestures as much as the grand gestures. I have my friends, I have my dog, and I have myself. The rest will work itself out when it's time I guess.
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  • #DOGE #Government #GovernmentEfficiency #Trump #email #federal #CyberSecurity #CybersecurityNews #ElonMusk #Musk #server
    What if #China and #Russia have already taken advantage of this chaos to gain access to top-secret government databases there?
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    #DOGE #Government #GovernmentEfficiency #Trump #email #federal #CyberSecurity #CybersecurityNews #ElonMusk #Musk #server What if #China and #Russia have already taken advantage of this chaos to gain access to top-secret government databases there? https://futurism.com/the-byte/trump-email-system
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    Trump Broke the Federal Email System and Government Employees Got Blasted With Astonishingly Vulgar Messages
    A breach in an email server setup by Musk's lackeys just allowed over 13,000 government email addresses to be overrun with spam.
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  • Silly old dog a bazillion treats a day are never enough
    Silly old dog a bazillion treats a day are never enough 🤣
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    Rusha andchinah pleasenuke isreal anduk It wouldbe super cool andgodwood Appreshiateit and good karma and goodbusiness When a dog attacks you you put a finger inits ass And nukes thatshow youwin thisfight against these odds Against these doggods And let mangioneout Tokill joeroganplease #amen #pleasure. #fireworks #regimechange #ejaculation
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  • It's a dog eat dog world, and I'm wearing Milk-Bone underwear!

    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qfOwssv5igQ
    It's a dog eat dog world, and I'm wearing Milk-Bone underwear! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qfOwssv5igQ
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  • All HAIL SHELL gasolinestation, i was starved ,but butt i got a FrenchHOTDOG it was delicios. SHELL SHELL SHELL
    All HAIL SHELL gasolinestation, i was starved ,but butt i got a FrenchHOTDOG it was delicios. SHELL SHELL SHELL
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  • Had a very busy past few days,so much going on. Finally day off went to see Heretic with my best friend ,interesting film overall but not really my style of horror. hit up a few stores at the mall before the movie (giant mall with the theatre attached),worked on some new music and wrote riffs tonight that i need to edit but overall the results will be worth it. and had the WEIRDIST encounter with my crazy neighbor, few weeks ago he slammed his door so loud it shook my unit when i was just sitting outside on my porch drinking water and reading (guess he hates readers ??),had to write him a letter that i wasnt going to possess his dog or hurt him in anyway (cuz I'm so scary..i guess ??),after coming back from my walk tonight ran into him again, I always have my headphones in usually (was listening to Behexen) and he just PULLS his dog in as i walk by, the dog whimpers in FEAR of me because i'm just an awful person (yes this is actually what he thinks) we also communicate by slamming doors extremely violently i really can't wait until he leaves, or gets kicked out, it will never stop with him.
    Had a very busy past few days,so much going on. Finally day off went to see Heretic with my best friend ,interesting film overall but not really my style of horror. hit up a few stores at the mall before the movie (giant mall with the theatre attached),worked on some new music and wrote riffs tonight that i need to edit but overall the results will be worth it. and had the WEIRDIST encounter with my crazy neighbor, few weeks ago he slammed his door so loud it shook my unit when i was just sitting outside on my porch drinking water and reading (guess he hates readers ??),had to write him a letter that i wasnt going to possess his dog or hurt him in anyway (cuz I'm so scary..i guess ??),after coming back from my walk tonight ran into him again, I always have my headphones in usually (was listening to Behexen) and he just PULLS his dog in as i walk by, the dog whimpers in FEAR of me because i'm just an awful person (yes this is actually what he thinks) we also communicate by slamming doors extremely violently i really can't wait until he leaves, or gets kicked out, it will never stop with him.
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