I like Halloween as much as the next goth, but I'm not going to water it down or sweeten it up a bit. It's a day for evil, the day when the veil between the living and the dead is at its thinnest. Demons be praised and devils be raised! Now give me some old school candy and forever be cursed!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S-oH2bsfe2k

Unfortunatelly my Toby has a agressive tumor on his leg... monday will to more exames to see if the tumor has already spread through his body... no easy decions... to operate his leg he has to do chemotherapy and hope that the cancer reduces... but only if the results of analisys show tha the cancer will be affected by chemo.. if not... we have 2 choices... amputate the leg... or leavit... and start threating him with medicine to ease the pain that he migth have... and give him tehe best life quality possible.. my heart his twice broken... broken because i will miss him ... and broken because he came to us some months affer my dad passed away with cancer... and he became my mothers companion...and it will devastating for her... not the passing... but the absence of his presence... because for 8 years he followed her everywhere.. and everywhere she looks... she will be reminded off him.. i will too.. sorry for venting... but it's been couple rough days....

I don't always worship the devil, but when I do...so do all the lost souls hopelessly wandering in the darkest depths of Hell!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uTsa0KZRnAs

https://www.ebay.co.uk/itm/256921527562?_skw=gamora+card&itmmeta=01K5RRRNQVHKCXX8R8XSW7C847&hash=item3bd1b7650a:g:XmsAAOSwpcNoGiCO&itmprp=enc%3AAQAKAAAA8FkggFvd1GGDu0w3yXCmi1faE52eBlTI6Ht7VFq4vyFwX6R8uUUdbI8NUiP4RblLkUbCYBgYvkTy%2Bx94%2BGpxDevbwzF7wyGa88nqakLjpVgTEHwVQQbYYnEKFz36wdjKyMiA9KO7FyvDLqsKL7QrUD15CxGBIYPatLGLGb%2FrsbNBC4HAnlrL1Mid9d5%2BBlljEGIEPJmUWvtubs0SnRUDm%2Ben3E7ZGZFbc3kEB2hwu1gpfWI16C5eWKlUpq6rvdOuZ4G8WtP98nqdAU4%2BaS7w5QnNP4DdQtZ8ANDfxPPtkr4KgfDY3B%2FdUDhE0ROxEnhWpA%3D%3D%7Ctkp%3ABk9SR5bc4piuZg

Cross the breach in hell
See she is
Bedeviled with breasts
Enchantment on legs

She s drawn to me. And im gonna let her devour me completly

Id dont know her name but it doesnt matter

Via the G Spot hahahaha

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=omdXmX-r2ho&list=RDomdXmX-r2ho&index=1

I cleaned up the up the hifi inside and out, and did mantainace. Few caps needed replacing. In a stroke of luck the CD lens to these things can be replaced with generic Chinese ones. I added a Bluetooth device to the AM Radio input, I can still receive AM if I wanted to but since its dead in the UK I added a Bluetooth Card instead.

I'm at the verge of crying every day...Wednesdays and Thursdays are always the hardest work days for me currently. I practically have to drag myself to work everyday and it's hardest on these days.
Next Monday I have a 1:1 with my boss...I hope I can address the issues. Although I would prefer to talk to another person First to get their opinion before taking to my boss. I think that would be more strategic but I will not have a meeting with them until next Wednesday. And I don't think I can wait this long...the longer leave this unresolved the more anxiety I'm developing about this. It's such a dilemma: be strategic and tall to the righ person first, but deal with my fears and anxiety a week longer or just talk to my boss directly without having that other insight. I feel so burdened by it. And no one can really help me except those 2 supervisors. So I have to carry this until they have one for me.
I can barely focus on the little work I do have and that makes my anxiety even worse because I feel even more useless and like I'm not performing well that makes and my fears that they are planning to let me go even worse...