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I think I'm starting to have a creative burnout due to regular burnout...

Somehow my latest "Just-for-fun" cosplay project that I just did for the sake of fun not for an upcoming convention or contest has become my "Frustration-Project". And that sucks!
The wig I'm styling for it is not making any progress and I have been working on and off on it for 2 Months...I never worked on such a complex wig re-styling with constructing a detachable Ponytail before, so I expected it to take longer... But whats frustratiing is that I dont't get to, or can't motivate myself to work on it for more than one hour per week on average. Which is really frustrating!
I really want to finis it to start on other things...I know if I just put it aside for other things I will never pick it up again to finish it.
I don't want it to end up on the unfinished project graveyard... =(

Not sure it will be a good idea to be using a device with a speeding up and down needle after I already had a shit day with everything going wrong and collecting at least 3 new bruises.... But that will sureley not keep me from trying :D
I really need to do something creative and productive to cheer me up again...

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I am bummed, depressed, haven't been feeling well for quite some time, and I am blank as a fart when it has been dealing with my creative endeavors. I have been under lots of stress, putting up with all the bulls**t from others and living in this sewer trap of a rural town, as I despise the surrounding counties and want out of this state and area so badly.
I fear my life is over. I'm 47 and will be 50 in three years as I wept a few times over that. I have a degree that I feel I cannot make use of, I want this other degree, and I feel I do not get the kind of support I need financially, and I feel I have been kind of neglected emotionally and mentally lately.
It is hard for me to talk about things as it is, and it seems when I attempt to vent or express my troublesome feelings and such...no one is to reply back or I do not get any replies. But it seems there are some people who want me to stop and drop everything for them when they need an ear to listen or a shoulder to cry on, but when I have these same needs and such I get blown off like a fart in the wind, no one replies back, and I'm left feeling stupid, hurt, and having this belief that noone really cares how I feel, what I want, or that lending me their ear or shoulder Is a burden to them when I need someone.
It's a very lonely world. And I feel like I have no answers or know what the next step is.
Sorry, I just had to get this off my chest. This is the only site I feel free to do so.

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This song is one of my favorites of all time. I love the anger and the lyrics are harsh. Creative and describing a being that just wants to destroy everything and has no remorse for anything at all. I think this might have been reznor talking about how he felt about God. I know he used to despise god....He now believes in god and worships him which is great......his dark music was definitely his best though.

Creative laundry day!

a bit of a rant here. So as most of you know I'm stil at war with my Nighbor, he claimed that he "cant get his work done" because of my loud music and other BS. He also is gender confused and claims to BE a women when clearly he's not. (he also insulted and put down women during the argument.) Also when i tried to de-escalate the situation, he just yelled at me that i had to move out and that i didn't like him. (some of us are busy and have active musical creative lives like myself) The creepy part is he hit on me too and that freaked me out. so I'm going to keep on being the great SATANIST and be EVIL as I can be from now on because that is who I am. cheers !

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