I just had a meltdown in the lab...because I'm burned and spent by this shit. This company has burned me completely and I'm just a walking pile of ash. Every passing day I wish more and more that I was one of the people that were layed off or that I would have an accident break and ankle or so and get a sick leave for a few weeks. Just to catch a breath and be an unexpected gap on the personal.
It's not the stress that's getting me I actually don't think the workload is overwhelming at the moment it's average and manageable. It's the lack of pay and appreciation that bothers me. I came on Saturdays I came on Sundays gave 110% to make them see that I am worth getting the same pay as the others and instead I get a warm sweaty handshake and a chocolate I can't even eat.
And I'm still trying to give a 110 percent that I don't even have in me anymore why because of revenge because I want it to hurt heavily when I leave and I want to see them in false security about my loyalty. But I'm not even sure that's worth it...
At this point I just wish for a new job opportunity and hope the company goes bankrupt so that I can get social support. I wouldn't get that for a few months if I resigned without a new job.

I'm so tired of all I don't even know how I still manage to get myself out if bed everyday. In the past few weeks I caught myself wishing I would catch a nasty cold or even fall off the bike and break something so I can catch a break...
How Terrible is that.

Guess who didn't catch up on sleep last night and is also doing overtime again I'm so freaking tired of this shit..

Ya know, I always wonder why his second term is so much different than his first term, but man, this dude has too much free time on his hands, who cares about this bunny loser? Don't like his anti-American show? Watch the Turning Point Half time show with Kirks wife, who probably spent the show banging one of his friends in back of their car or banged Kid Rock after the show.

Trump did know.. he had an alternative to watch, right?

Trump's not wrong about this opinion, I'm just saying, no one cares about the Superbowl or it's halftime anti-American Woke Show.

The truth is, the NFL does not cater to Conservatives or anyone who are 'enemies' to the Democrat Party and their Woke ideology, the NFL has been woke, has been anti-American for years now, it ain't changing, Mr President!

So, stop giving idiotic, anti-American, woke celebrities like Bunny, so much undeserved attention and focus on doing your job, as President!

All you're doing is giving these celebrities more promotion and making them more popular.

ADHD Time Blindness hit so hard, it's now 3:30 am and I have to be at work ealry tomorrow. I havent even showered yet & I don't really wanna go to bet because I don't want Monday to come. :(

Oh well at least I found a few job offers barely worth applying to and got a hint of motivation to get that cover letter for some applications drafted. Now I just need to prepare a translation and do some phrase polishing and individual adaptions to the specific offers. Wasted my entire sunday on this so at least I feel less like a faliure now. Small victories...

Being yourself the Original is the bestest thing ever, because an authentic You is worth more than any duplicates, copies, or wanna be's, in and throughout time Forever!!! Be You. ♡

This is so discourageing! Of all the job offers that I can find none are Jobs that I would actually wanna take if I actually did get the offer, because all require commuting over an hour or moving to I city that I would never wanna live in. This is just downright depressing! In the past 3 weeks I have not even seen one offer that was in my current location or even close by. I just want a new job not an entire life re-orientation!

It is just so sad that we live in such a career-driven double standard society where it is totally normalized that as a young person, you HAVE to be ready give up your ENTIRE LIFE and the place you picked to be your home ANYTIME to find a new job. But on the same time you are expected to be ready to settle and have a family from 30 onwards. And with a family you are often still required to move your entire family to a new place for a new job and it's totally normalized!

And overall economy is just shit and the field I work in is not doing well despite the fact that it was flourishing during the pandemic.

I blame everything on Merz at this point because I need a scapegoat to vent my anger!

So during my well deserved work break I almost got injured by a FALLING object,I was catching up with a coworker,and one of the florescent lights just fell,It landed directly next to me,I happened to be listening to one of my favorite bands BlackThorn and I didn't even flinch at all and started laughing at the whole thing,interesting day for sure....

The antidote for brain rot is books.
The antidote for brain rot is books.

Read books. Encourage your friends and families to read.
Read to learn. Read to satisfy curiosity. Read to understand the world. Read to spark creativity and imagination. Read to improve communication. Read to enhance empathy. Read just for fun. But read.

Who does this ? Caterpillars on the eyelids ? wtf?
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