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ADHD Time Blindness hit so hard, it's now 3:30 am and I have to be at work ealry tomorrow. I havent even showered yet & I don't really wanna go to bet because I don't want Monday to come. :(

Oh well at least I found a few job offers barely worth applying to and got a hint of motivation to get that cover letter for some applications drafted. Now I just need to prepare a translation and do some phrase polishing and individual adaptions to the specific offers. Wasted my entire sunday on this so at least I feel less like a faliure now. Small victories...

I'm sinking more and more into one of my sleep escapism-depressions again. Everything is so discouraging and seems so hopeless....

I can barely get myself to leave the bed lately. I lack any motivation and elan to do anything.
Perpetually trapped in task paralysis.

On workdays I push myself to still give 110% despite constantly asking "what am I doing it for its not like it's fruitful for me". Work drains me so much I can't find the energy to look for new jobs after hours.
And on Weekends I am still drained and barely drag myself out of bed after sleeping for 12hr, then I end up on the couch staring into my phone screen doomscrolling, because I can't get myself to sit on my PC and look for job offers because I know there are barely any that are suitable for me. But pursuing my hobbies makes me feel guilty because "I should spend this time on looking for jobs".
So I just sit there on the couch trapped by invisible chains of guilt and discourage while I'm hoping for the unlikely miracle that a Recruiter will find my job profile and it's the perfect match for both sides. And that the world politics wills suddenly be bearable again. But with the current leaders pfft finding the Amber-room again is more likely than having a secure and happy future.
Thats why I keep asking myself: What future am even doing it for?

Karoline Leavitt just STUNNED the Fake News by saying they should WANT DNI Tulsi Gabbard investigating the 2020 election fraud, because THEY peddled the "Russia" hoax

"It's the MEDIA who has said that there's Russian interference in American elections, you guys have been saying that for many many years!"

"So the people in this room considering that you all you all said for many years Russia interfered in the 2016 election to help Donald Trump — you should all be VERY happy that we finally have an administration that is looking into that!"

"The president wholeheartedly supports both Kash Patel and Tulsi Gabbard in ensuring that American elections are safe!"

Bishop Robert Barron: There was a line from Zohran Mamdani’s inaugural address yesterday that took my breath away. He said he intended to replace “the frigidity of rugged individualism with the warmth of collectivism.” Collectivism in its various forms is responsible for the deaths of at least one hundred million people in the last century. Socialist and Communist forms of government around the world today—Venezuela, Cuba, North Korea, etc.—are disastrous. Catholic social teaching has consistently condemned socialism and has embraced the market economy, which people like Mayor Mamdani caricature as “rugged individualism.” In fact, it is the economic system that is based upon the rights, freedom, and dignity of the human person. For God’s sake, spare me the “warmth of collectivism.”

Words of warning: I'm back on the sauce so anyone looking for sympathy tonight, you're barking up the wrong Hebe. But seriously, some of you are good people.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XmU4Xyl00hY

DNI Tulsi Gabbard said during her address to TPUSA, the EU and NATO are trying to drag us into a war with Russia, and that Deep Staters are OBSTRUCTING peace negotiations

"They do so to pull the US military into a conflict with Russia, which is ultimately what the EU and NATO want. We CANNOT ALLOW THIS TO HAPPEN."

"Every time they make progress, move closer to that hope for peace - the war mongers and deep state step up and do everything they can to stop them!"

"The Deep State, Intel Community, leak it to their friends in the Mainstream Propaganda Media to try to spread a false narrative."

"They foment fear and hysteria as a way to justify the continuing of the war, to undermine President Trump's efforts towards peace."

"We have to see clearly what's happening before our very eyes - and stand UNITED in this cause for peace."

"Barack Hussein Obama was the first Black President, a community organizer, one term Senator from Illinois, and one of the most divisive political figures in American History. As President, he passed the highly ineffective 'Unaffordable' Care Act, resulting in his party losing control of both Houses of Congress, and the Election of the largest House Republican majority since 1946. He presided over a stagnánt Economy, approved the terrible Iran Nuclear Deal, and signed the one-sided Paris Climate Accords, both of which were later terminated by President Donald J. Trump.

“Under Obama, the ISIS Caliphate spread across the Middle East, Libya collapsed into chaos, and Rússia invaded and took Crimea, in Ukraine. He crippled small businesses with crushing regulation and environmental red tape, devastated American coal miners, and weaponized the IRS and Federal bureáucracies against his political opponents. Obama also spied on the 2016 Presidential Campaign of Donald J. Trump, and presided over the creation of the Russia, Russia, Russia Hoax, the worst political scandal in American History. His handpicked successor, Hillary Rodham Clinton, would then lose the Presidency to Donald J. Trump.”

LOL???

BREAKING: President Trump and AG Pam Bondi just asked a federal court in Florida to release EPSTEIN TRANSCRIPTS that are currently sealed.

The filing comes barely 2 days after Trump signed the Epstein Files Transparency Act.

The DOJ is now arguing the new law OVERRIDES a law that allowed these documents to remain sealed.

HUGE BACKFIRE on the left.