(not sure if anyone reads this, but I think I just need a platform to shout out... not suited for everyone I guess btw..)
Living with Bipolar Disorder is just the worst... not sure if anyone else is dealing with this shit but the worst are those crashing episodes that you cannot foresee yourself.
Especially those Episodes where you just running internally mentally wild and the only thing you feel is just that anyone just want to betray and hurt you... even your closest ones.
I'm really not sure what triggered the current episode: the constant stress at work, the stress of being available for everyone and everything every second for the last few months, or my own realization and disappointment that I think I've made so many bad decisions in the past because of my good faith, which have destroyed paths I would have liked to take(career and study-wise).
However, I currently hate myself more than usual; not only for what I haven't achieved at the moment, but especially for the way I behave towards others uncontrollably during this phase.
I am unconsciously insulting and offending those who actually want the best for me.
I hide and deny the real causes until it is too late... (I'm such a coward)
I wish I would be fixable but I'm not I guess...

The worst thing is probably this post-episode in which you realize that not only the world itself is the problem, but that your own grievance towards others is also the problem in this world.
(No wonder why the S-rate is so high in this disorder circle, since most people can't find any other solution).

Maybe I just want someone to tell me directly and unhinged that they actual love me for what I am and that what I'm trying to achieve is enough

Whoever keeps viewing my shit, whatcha up to lol

Since I have no real friends anymore who care about my mental well being and cheer me up, I'll spent the rest of the day with my 2 most loyal friends Meghan and Isolde that never fail to bring joy and harmony back to my life. 🪉

girls mite be gay they have buttwholes too

Looks like its an early night for me. Little old me didn't read my new work contact; I am contacted 'AM' but with no set hours. Guess who has to open up the shift? Me, I start instead of 8 AM, now 7 AM, we have no staff at that time, or manager's. It has been thrown around the office like a live gernade and exploded on me! Alcoholism not good excuse to justify why I need the extra hour in bed; there is a silver lining I get to leave at 3 PM. Extra drinking time!

The Supreme Leader of the Islamic Regime in Iran, Ayatollah Khamenei, is reportedly traumatized and in a very difficult mental state.

“Everyone who worked with him is dead, and he is having a hard time trusting anyone around him.”

Wahhhhh.
Let the Persian royal family back in Persia(Iran) !
Extreme Islam needs to go.

My attempt at making connie sgarbossa who is or was in seeyouspacecowboy in sims4 i couldnt get exact tattoos so i used these spooky Halloween tattoos i added my own touch by giving her a letter necklace
I had a hard time finding hair that looks like her actual hair

I am back, a few rounds later. I am full of spice and venom! For the select few who rememeber me, sucide is not the answer.

A perfunctory shoutout to my man MemeGnosis. You created a cult for those who self deleted but chose not to post for 2 years. Then blocked those who called out your bullshit. How ironic.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jne9t8sHpUc

Back in the day UK police had to be 6.0", university educationed, and built like a brick shit house; now we have high school twinks, who have the physique of an Umpa Lompa. Very commanding!

https://www.youtube.com/shorts/Jc6FdpcIQUw?feature=share