Nothing is attractive about being alive in this timeline anymore.... family and friends just are just leeches that suck me dry emotionally...future doesn't look too rosy with a war next door and major countries being ruled by tyrants, economy is also shit...I barely have energy to keep on. And now the small things about daily life also keep getting more complicated and annoying... It will be a hassle to find a parking spot for my car in future and simultaneously the resident parking passes have become 6x more expensive (and that doesn't ensure that you will get a parking spot). Oh and did I mention that I just learned that I earn 20% less than my colleague in the same position witht the same JD?
I am being exploited on every level and cheated for a happy future...
I was told if I worked hard in school and pursue an academic degree I will not have to worry about the future. I feel that's a lie....our generation is just fucked.

Kinda been feeling bled dry lately and currently fleeing myself into an endless loop of doomwatching some historical documentaries post work.

I look at some upcoming events in my work and personal calendar that I've been looking forward to, and meanwhile I hear an inner voice whispering a quiet "why" to me....

I think I should take a vacation and go away... Far, far away from people

The band is called the interns and there is no such thing as nothing isn't true . . . https://youtu.be/hr_VG56Wqlw

ConsumedByDarkness InfernalHate CristallDarcy Update: wasn't burned on a stake but was kinda the center of attention with my more or less unusual appearance (yup dressed up goth af) and was kinda filled up with wine like Röhrich on a heater installation :D

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_ED7JH_WHS8 This so fukkin good. He pulled all the PLugs.

I nailed the interview and told them I don't see a reason why not to hire me. I am sure my skills blew them away as I've seen them writing down everthing I said... Let's see...

I've done some reflecting today. I think I have unconciously been spiraling down the depression spiral since November with some high phases re-locating the issue in a very self destructive behavioral patterns. that has led to a distorted vision of myself and my personality. Now have a major setback in my self view and I hate many things about myself that I worked so hard on learning to love. Now I need to re-learn to love these things about myself.
How did it even come so far without ne noticing...

I. Have. Been. Emailed. By. A. Cruiseship. Company. From. Hong. Kong. Regarding. Job. Opportunities.
Did not think twice and sent them my CV.

The downside of having natural curls: Sometimes I forget how long my hair actually is until I dye it again...
That was almost an arm workout...and a well needed confidence boost. It cheered me up seeing that all the research and try and error I put into caring for my hair and growing iot out over years has finally led to some success...

Hey TheYellowKing You still around? May your Easter basket be filled with candy other than peeps, and your king be someone talented and not some superstitious Jew.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ms_JY-DuItY