Perhaps there are others here who also work in the IT sector and/or have strong connections to the topic:

Currently, I am finding it increasingly difficult to continue working in my field, but in general and not explicitly related to my workplace.
Professionally, I deal with the topic of AI on a daily basis, but also to such an extent that issues such as professional recognition and even promotions depend on excessive use.
AI undoubtedly has its (sometimes really good) uses. Nevertheless, the ethics of its application on the current global scale seem extremely difficult to me.
So difficult that I don't know if I want to remain in this profession with a clear conscience, because I am no longer an IT consultant or developer, but rather feel like an AI coordinator whose job it is to mediate cleanly between humans and machines.
I am currently observing how jobs are increasingly being outsourced to AI. Either actively, by no longer advertising the positions, or passively, by dismissing everything that can be replaced via personnel interviews with seemingly flimsy justifications (you can always find a way to get rid of someone Unwanted).
And global experience shows how wonderful this outsourcing of work is: work becomes less valuable, company owners pocket the dividends, and the social divide grows ever wider.

I chose this profession to solve problems and help people, to specialize in consulting and service, to actively help people, to identify challenges that I am familiar with, and to support them. Even when the day was long and difficult, I could go home with a clear conscience. Because when the problem was solved, my customers were grateful and happy—and so was I, because I was able to help someone.
Today, I have become part of the problem. I no longer help to support people, but to replace them—and I am just waiting to be replaced myself.
I used to have the desire to continue my education in my field, to live my life and to learn. Now I no longer know why I should.

The future and the existence I had once envisioned, the “healthy world,” are no longer there.
And in the evenings, when darkness descends, I can hardly sleep. With my eyes closed, I lie awake, feeling paralyzed, as if my thoughts are constantly running into a wall. I don't dare talk about it with those around me because I only see myself as a burden on the world. I think no one needs my problems—everyone is struggling with their own, and I am just another burden, another eyesore in an already fragile world.
How can I still represent the hope and confidence of a world that is dying, when I am a correspondent of its murder?

XZanthia - Project 19.5 is the ethereal, experimental counterpart to my darker work—an evolving sound project rooted in ambient, noise, and esoteric electronic music. Originally begun in 1998, Project 19.5 explores liminal states, altered perception, and the space between signal and silence.
https://youtu.be/1wC91bBXRvU

Good morning darklings!

shaved my Face with some Maids in the Dark

Call it post punk, darkwave, or goth. The Cure influence is without a doubt, but that's a good thing.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=60CRaRLSHaM

Dark visions. Liquid colors. Shirts for wandering souls and altered minds. Psychedelic tees for sale Available on ETSY XZanthia.com

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Of Dostoyevsky’s four major novels, Demons is perhaps the least well known — though seems most pertinent to our strange times. A dark social and political satire, psychological drama and vast human tragedy, it’s pretty astonishing. A different translation utilizing a different “take” on the title, Devils.

YouTube.com/XZanthiaMUSIC This is music that refuses to sit still.
It isn’t here to soothe you or fade into the background—
it exists to keep you alert, slightly off-balance,
never certain what’s about to unfold next.

Every moment is a corner you haven’t turned yet.
Just when you think you understand it,
it shifts, lunges, softens, surprises.
It’s an acquired taste, absolutely—
not something inherited, familiar, or politely nostalgic.
This is not comfort food. This is appetite disruption.

I want the sound to confuse you, to intrigue you,
to make you uneasy in a way that keeps pulling you closer.
To catch you enjoying tension,
finding pleasure in resistance,
realizing that discomfort can feel intimate
when it refuses to let go.

You may not always know what you’re hearing,
but you’ll never be bored—
because at any moment it’s ready to leap out,
wrap around you,
and pull you into that strange place
where struggle feels like an embrace.



Project 19.5 is an ethereal, esoteric music project that began in 1998, long before genres like “witch house,” “dark ambient,” or “experimental pop” had names attached to them. What started as intimate sonic experimentation grew over decades into a body of work shaped by collaborations with multiple producers across different eras, each phase capturing a different emotional frequency and psychological landscape.

Rather than traditional songwriting, Project 19.5 focuses on much, but not all non-lyrical vocals, breath, tone, texture, and instinct. My voice is treated as an instrument—hovering between noise, chant, dream, and ritual—allowing listeners to project their own meaning without being guided by explicit words. This approach creates an immersive emotional experience that exists somewhere between beauty and unease.

In 2025, the project entered a new phase: revisiting, remixing, and remastering archival material to finally release it in its most refined and intentional form. These recordings preserve the raw spirit of their original creation while enhancing the depth, clarity, and atmosphere—bridging past and present into a singular evolving entity.

Project 19.5 represents the ethereal side of XZanthia—still haunting, still unsettling, but softer and more internal than her darker project, Jupiter’s Thunder. The Project 19.5 album Uzumaki exists within this realm as a gentler spiral, incorporating lyrics while maintaining a dreamlike, hypnotic quality.

This is music designed to be felt rather than understood—a liminal soundscape for introspection, transformation, and emotional resonance beyond language.

#music #Dark_Academia #Victorian #1800s
https://youtu.be/p9w2X-zIhW8