Another day left abandoned in the ditch of depression and burnout. Let's see how long I will be burning myself out today.
At least I can I turn to music for consolation without being let down.


There is one phrase that almost everyone close to you will say but never actually mean it. People who stay true to it are exceptionally rare and never get that back from others.

That feeling when Finally having time to sit down and actually rest with nothing to prepare or plan feels like submerging your ears in the water at a loud swimming pool...

I have really reached my limit this week mentally and physically. I often struggle with post summer burnout in September/October but this week I had to function perfectly during work and so many social obligations whereas I had things to prepare for or join in. I didn't get any real me time to unwind because I had to run errands and prepare things til late in the night. Never getting to bed before 3 or 4 am... I ran on sleep deprivation an burnout. Yesterday I was close to the point of breaking down exhaustion. I felt my knees almost give out in the store... Now it's finally over I have finally time for me with nothing to prepare for others. I will probably have a hardcore social shutdown but thb I need it 😅

I think this is week 2 of Listening to this band nonstop pretending that it will fix my overstimmulation and the high functioning burnout I'm currently facing....At least I have something that I can cling onto for comfort am I right? 😅
I pity my neighbours who have to listen to this blasting from my speakers, as soon as I come home to 2am when I go to bed...and sometimes even in the morning when I get ready 😅 Hope it fixes their depression too otherwise thats awkward...

I think I'm starting to have a creative burnout due to regular burnout...

Somehow my latest "Just-for-fun" cosplay project that I just did for the sake of fun not for an upcoming convention or contest has become my "Frustration-Project". And that sucks!
The wig I'm styling for it is not making any progress and I have been working on and off on it for 2 Months...I never worked on such a complex wig re-styling with constructing a detachable Ponytail before, so I expected it to take longer... But whats frustratiing is that I dont't get to, or can't motivate myself to work on it for more than one hour per week on average. Which is really frustrating!
I really want to finis it to start on other things...I know if I just put it aside for other things I will never pick it up again to finish it.
I don't want it to end up on the unfinished project graveyard... =(