I tried I really tried...but it happens again... I'm trying to not be invisible. And at result I've become painfully visible just utterly disregarded...

There is a heavy Rain in my head but no one wants to look out the windows because facing the clouds is too depressing for them...They rather look at their reflection I the windows.



Why am I so stupid, forgiving and hopeful and keep trying? I save myself so much disappointment if I just close up and suffer in silence.

ok butt seriosly there are fucking ghosts i am scrapign in a abandoned sike ward and i feel like i am beign watched somethin wants me so bad rn

work truck? barely running. jobsite? on fire. pants? shitted. mood? ecstatic

The planet is fine. All the Crap we choose to flush down the drain gets RE-uptaken by the amazing PLANTS kingdom. Everything is allright.

Nothing is attractive about being alive in this timeline anymore.... family and friends just are just leeches that suck me dry emotionally...future doesn't look too rosy with a war next door and major countries being ruled by tyrants, economy is also shit...I barely have energy to keep on. And now the small things about daily life also keep getting more complicated and annoying... It will be a hassle to find a parking spot for my car in future and simultaneously the resident parking passes have become 6x more expensive (and that doesn't ensure that you will get a parking spot). Oh and did I mention that I just learned that I earn 20% less than my colleague in the same position witht the same JD?
I am being exploited on every level and cheated for a happy future...
I was told if I worked hard in school and pursue an academic degree I will not have to worry about the future. I feel that's a lie....our generation is just fucked.

#music #retro #Med #summer
Who wants to visit me? Huge house by the seashore. All we will do the whole day is sunbathing, swimming, philosophizing, reading books...
https://youtu.be/rVl623aZlEY

DEathscrollers anybody wants some Deathscrolling

I knew it.




I'm just not worth to be described. Because the only way im seen is when I function. When im useful.
How will anynoe describe me as anything elst than "the one that waters their plants on vacation" ot "that drives them around". Im not "the one with the soft bouncy curls" or "the one that always has paint on her Fingers" bc these little details that make me a person are never seen. They are not useful...

In slowly but surely falling into an even darker place...

I'll tell you what the problem is, InfernalHate. You tag the same 3 people every post. The rest of us peasants feel left out, somehow not important enough to play in your Schutzstaffel games. Just being real here. The Finns and Argentines are only in it for the likes!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XIRnecKnYgo

So Qualcomm wants to speak to me a second time regarding IT Analyst position - German speaking.
Let us see what happens.