I made a decision to go back a generation and cancle all my music streaming services and just use CD's again, ya know own the media you consume. I picked up a Hitachi mini hifi. These were very stylist when I was a wee jewlet. I has dual input aux for pc, phone/mp3 player and can read MP3 CD's. Cannot wait to clean it up, service it and put in place by my PC at home.

Nothing is worse for a highly intelligent and gifted person to be under-challenged and underwhelmed....

Today, I came home from work crying because I realised how underchallenged and boring my work currently is. My expertise is currently not being used because customer projects come in slow and don't get to the downstream processing/purification part (I'm a specialist for protein pruification). I don't get many other opportunities to show my skills and knowledge and only do some minor backup tasks like writing working instructions...Nothing about my work currenly feels rewaring and chellengeing. I am a scientist, I love the try and error and the challenge! I thrive in that. I literally work best with stress and being overloaded with work than with being underwhelmed...
On top of it I'm gettin really bad imposter syndrome because of not being able to show my expertise while my colleagues currenlty thrive and get ever opportunity to show their knowledge and expert fields. We got a new teamlead in march and so far I feel like I could not show off/prove my skille and knowledge to him while the others could. I feel like I'm standing in the shadows sometimes even being actively pushed back into them. Like a tool put in a shelf not neede for now collecting dust.
It's incredibly frustrating and deressing for me because I am a scientist by heart I love my profession...

Now my overthinking brain gets even to the point where I'm asking myself if they are boring me out on purpose, so I leave the company on my own accord and they don't have to fire me, because they can't without a reason....
I'm more and more thinking of actually looking for a different posititon... Maybe I'll apply for a pHD after all...

I've got a kitchen full of roaches gettin' it on and they ain't leaving till 6 in the morn. So, whatcha gonna do? I've gotta big can of Raid and my homeboys do too!

well... shitty ?vacations? on my parents house in south portugal.... it's been 5 years since me my mom my bro his wife and my nephew went there in plain August..... fuck...it was unberable.... no AC on the house... 2 big fan's could cool the air...we're back home again..

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So I know its been a hot minute since I tortured you sexy lot. I found out recently a bunch of friends of mine are pregnant ALL with boys which requires me to baby shop lol. I got issues lol. I've also been super busy with other projects and things at home. I know we all got shit going on and some days are better than others and I know sometimes life is hard as heel and frustrating as f*ck. I do not know what you are going through and I don't know what traumas you have endured.

I do know whatever you HAVE endured by others is not your fault. If your mind is saying you are worthless, it is lying. If your mind is telling you that you are a burden, it is lying. It is so easy to pull yourself a part because you feel less than but I promise you that you .... you lovely person,regardless of your gender, sexuality, ethnicity, religions belief or anything else, you are magically and beautifully made. So just for today... treat yourself kind.