I'm at the verge of crying every day...Wednesdays and Thursdays are always the hardest work days for me currently. I practically have to drag myself to work everyday and it's hardest on these days.
Next Monday I have a 1:1 with my boss...I hope I can address the issues. Although I would prefer to talk to another person First to get their opinion before taking to my boss. I think that would be more strategic but I will not have a meeting with them until next Wednesday. And I don't think I can wait this long...the longer leave this unresolved the more anxiety I'm developing about this. It's such a dilemma: be strategic and tall to the righ person first, but deal with my fears and anxiety a week longer or just talk to my boss directly without having that other insight. I feel so burdened by it. And no one can really help me except those 2 supervisors. So I have to carry this until they have one for me.
I can barely focus on the little work I do have and that makes my anxiety even worse because I feel even more useless and like I'm not performing well that makes and my fears that they are planning to let me go even worse...

Ok shout-out to Berenika for releasing this funky new single that saved my Monday! This energetic tune brought back my vigor.
Bye bye post vacation blues. HELLo party mood!
This will probably be my get ready in the morning song for the rest of this month
https://youtu.be/JY9D2fEh-K0?list=RDJY9D2fEh-K0

Cozy music and my sketchbook 🫶 because mondays are exhausting

Motherfuckers be having "manager" in their job title but asking me how to manage things. Happy fucking Monday.

The weekend was waaay too short why is it Monday again?!

I have set my profile to "Open to Work" on LinkedIn now and am again actively looking for work. Looks like this shit at the company I currently work for won't go through and I can forget about any salary increases/promotions, I will probably only have more work added to me instead because I'm good at it.

Fuck. This. Shit. Happy Monday and whatnot.