That feeling when Finally having time to sit down and actually rest with nothing to prepare or plan feels like submerging your ears in the water at a loud swimming pool...

I have really reached my limit this week mentally and physically. I often struggle with post summer burnout in September/October but this week I had to function perfectly during work and so many social obligations whereas I had things to prepare for or join in. I didn't get any real me time to unwind because I had to run errands and prepare things til late in the night. Never getting to bed before 3 or 4 am... I ran on sleep deprivation an burnout. Yesterday I was close to the point of breaking down exhaustion. I felt my knees almost give out in the store... Now it's finally over I have finally time for me with nothing to prepare for others. I will probably have a hardcore social shutdown but thb I need it

I can't believe the first thing that Ozzy Osbourne did as a ghost , was murder Hulk Hogan and make him join him in the afterlife!!!! 🫨

BREAKING NEWS:

UK to change the voting age from 18 to 16. They cannot drink, drive, or join the millatry or hold a ful time job but they get to vote on issues adult issues. Call me a cynic but these seems like a ploy to win the next election; anyone under the age twenty sorry to tell your stupid and brainless and they are the only ones who will vote Liebour in the next election.

[less] Seems to be the only one posting music lately. I'll join you.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bstIgdrNtAg

For the late night haunting, New World jaunting...I can't count on millennials or Gen Z to post tonight. Hell, even us Gen Xers were babies this slight. So, grab a brew and light up a joint cause Black Oak Arkansas is gonna groove you alright!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BSPXnwVwEmA

Hey sportsbitch I like your style. Have you considered joining a harem? If not, here's a sport related tune.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=St2XNO819lA

Somehow it has become hard for me to enjoy my socia shutdown alone time. Sometimes I just need to recharge my social batteries and shut myself in for a weekend doing things I enjoy alone like painting and sewing. And sometimes I need several weekends on a row.. But lately I often feel guilty doing this. Today too...Especially if others have asked if I wanna do something or join a get together. Even if they are understanding bc they are also introverted and get it. I feel like they just said it to be nice but are actually upset and think that I am selfish...
But a the same time I hate not having so much time for my hobbies anymore so I look forward to be able to spend an entire weekend on them. Is it selfish to prioritize this over social interactions? I have picked up all these hobbies in the past as way fix the loneliness I experienced for always being the odd one with very little friends. Now I love art more than people because it was always there for me when people weren't. I think thats why it makes me feel guilty now that there are people who want to spend time with me.
Lately I have been struggleing with this thought a lot...but I really need to recharge in order to not completely explode or break down.

Why is an almost dead social media site ‘invitation only’ with no way for most people to join outside of personally knowing the the one guy who still bothers to post? Seems suicidally stupid.