"Once the rain is over, an umbrella becomes a burden to carry. - That's why loyalty ends when benefits stop."

Yeah...
I'm experiencing that a lot. As soon as their problems are solved or they have dumped their emotional burden on me there is suddenly no time to listen to my troubles...as soon as I start sharing I'm dropped or quickly disregarded with one sentence...and people wonder why I never open up and talk about things easily...

And once they stop benefiting from me altogether the friendship dies out... I'm not just worth being kept around just for the sake of it.
It's not like I haven't been struggling with self loathing for months and my self view wasn't already ruined on many levels...

Kinda been feeling bled dry lately and currently fleeing myself into an endless loop of doomwatching some historical documentaries post work.

I look at some upcoming events in my work and personal calendar that I've been looking forward to, and meanwhile I hear an inner voice whispering a quiet "why" to me....

I think I should take a vacation and go away... Far, far away from people

So, a former coworker is fishing for sympathy on social media, because April was " one of the worst months of his life." Why? Well, he had to have one of his cats put down...I get that, he had that cat for about 13 years, and while I don't care for cats much myself, he does and after having it so long that must have been rough. But he is just as heart broken, if not more so, because his PS5 broke the same month. I'd expect that reaction if he were a kid, or even a teenager, but this guy's in his late 30s. Wtf.

People who fear Covid in 2025 and wear masks all day have a mental illness, Your not protecting yourself from Covid, the Virus stopped killing people start of 2022 with omicron variant, Sorry you have a mental illness that's all it is please sort yourself out!

Crazy ass people thinking that if Vance wins in 2028, that he'll screw himself out of the Presidency for Trump, lol

Not only is that undemocratic, Winning and immediately resigning, but thats also stupid, lol.

You've got "Trump Derangement Syndrome" and you've also got, "Trump Addictionn Syndrome", and both are very bad mental disorders, lol

Dominicane

Once again Lucy Krugers gentle and melancholic voice is the only thing that keeps me grounded and comforts me. It's he only voice I want to hear rn and my paintbrushes are the only thing I want to hold on to. But I am forced to function. Listen to everyone yap and pick up the pieces of myself that break off along the road.
I am so tired
https://youtu.be/EvaWwpTvm0o?si=dT_fCbd3ZbsB5_Fg

By the horizon comes the sun
So self-important on and on
As if the future's safe and sound

If you're over 18 and want a sex change knock your socks off. Or cut your cocks off. Or do whatever you want. However if you're giving your kids hormone blockers or trying to change their sex. Kill yourself.

Did a 5 minute stand up during open mic night at a local comedy club some years back. Not as easy as it looks. If you find yourself bombing, remember the Johnny Carson rule to get the crowd roaring again. A few good zingers about the McNugget or Judge Wapner should do the trick. If there's a bad joke about fast food or corny 80s icons, I haven't heard it yet!

I have been thinking of getting a facial piercing for a while now.. Do you think a labret would suit me ? Put a fake one on my lip a few weeks ago and took a picture. But I can't decide of I like or hate it. I kinda hate seeing myself in most of the selfies I take, except for cosplay pics in which im literally not myself. I have been struggling with body dismorphia and self-esteem a lot lately...so I need a confidence boost...