I think depression has killed my spark...
Even though I am working through the things depressing me and starting to find closure. I feel like the fire within me is gone too. Snuffed to not even a spark. I'm not even looking forward to the big events that l love visiting so much. They are just there on the agenda. And I will go there because I know I will regret not going. But there is no enthusiasm about them right now. No anticipation nor excitement.
Idk if it is because I have been visiting that next upcoming event for over 10 years, or if it is because these were events I used to visit with friends but they don't come anymore...idk I just don't feel any excitement or anticipation and that's scary. Looking forward to these events used to cheer me up a lot..
I'm sorry to all the (very few) people wo love me for my bubbly enthusiasm, infectious excitement, and passionate personality...that fire is gone...

ConsumedByDarkness , Affectmentis , CristallDarcy , LeftBehind Sieg gegen ALDI wurde erbracht nun geht es weiter. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5D2jyuJaSAU

Who cares what UK and Germany thinks about Trump's Ukraine Peace agenda, the UK Still lives in the middle ages and Germany is jailing ppl for memes, and attacking free speech. Trump is right, Zelensky is a Dictator, trying to cosplay as President Putin.

If Zelensky is afraid to have democratic elections, then that should be a clear indication that he's very unpopular for killing millions of Ukrainians, while profiting of their deaths, and would surely lose.

End the Dictatorship of Zelensky

Obsolescence wanted to learn more ybout the Legendary Drache. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B9_lpqeQA0s

Tik Tok ban in the USA is expected to take effect Jan. 19. What will Gen Z and Gen Alpha do to entertain themselves? I suggest a paper route or a job slinging sodas at the local malt shop. It builds character, and they'll have some change in their pocket.

Da hat mich wieder eine Firma aus Deutschland erwischt. :D Morgen also ein Interview. :D

Skyrim Intro But It's Brainrot (Gen Alpha Slang) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sVn4sBxLokA

Watching a reaction video of this. Gen Alpha chick asks if they took a shot of energy drink before recording this. Yes, they did. We called it cocaine!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UDfAdHBtK_Q&ab_channel=TheWhoVEVO

My soul really needed this long weekend for myself...
I was mentally burning out in the shadow of a high functioning facade for 2 months. I needed a break from life and from functioning perfectly. A small vacation without any obligations or an agenda. Just me alone and my art. And the luxury to decide on on a whim, what I feel like doing. No places to be at certain times, no schedule, no peole to meet... Just time passing by at my own pace....
I know its odd, but spending time alone is actually the most relaxing for me. Going on vacations/traveling is just stressing me out.