I'm sinking more and more into one of my sleep escapism-depressions again. Everything is so discouraging and seems so hopeless....

I can barely get myself to leave the bed lately. I lack any motivation and elan to do anything.
Perpetually trapped in task paralysis.

On workdays I push myself to still give 110% despite constantly asking "what am I doing it for its not like it's fruitful for me". Work drains me so much I can't find the energy to look for new jobs after hours.
And on Weekends I am still drained and barely drag myself out of bed after sleeping for 12hr, then I end up on the couch staring into my phone screen doomscrolling, because I can't get myself to sit on my PC and look for job offers because I know there are barely any that are suitable for me. But pursuing my hobbies makes me feel guilty because "I should spend this time on looking for jobs".
So I just sit there on the couch trapped by invisible chains of guilt and discourage while I'm hoping for the unlikely miracle that a Recruiter will find my job profile and it's the perfect match for both sides. And that the world politics wills suddenly be bearable again. But with the current leaders pfft finding the Amber-room again is more likely than having a secure and happy future.
Thats why I keep asking myself: What future am even doing it for?

Democrats are expressing concerns and fear that body cameras could be ICE's new Mass Surveillance tool and could infringe on the privacy rights of protesters.

Reality:
Bodycams dispell narratives, that's why agitators hate them

It's much easier to break the law and run away, then when the police are about to get you, you turn the camera on and pretend to be a victim

Someone asked if I prefer love or friendship.
Sweetheart,
all my ships are Titanic.
Start epic.
End tragic.
Cue the emotional violin.

You and me ... Will be togheter agin Sometime

Yes, you absolutely can carry at a protest. Anyone who tells you otherwise is an anti-2A statist.

No, you absolutely cannot interrupt a federal op while armed and tussle with LEO. That's how tragic things happen.

This isn't rocket science.

The antidote for brain rot is books.
The antidote for brain rot is books.

Read books. Encourage your friends and families to read.
Read to learn. Read to satisfy curiosity. Read to understand the world. Read to spark creativity and imagination. Read to improve communication. Read to enhance empathy. Read just for fun. But read.

Imagine not understanding pants

Now apparently being white is contagious…..-rolls eyes- enough with the guilt trips.
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These sanctuary city politicians complain about federal officers in their cities, far-left agitators comparing the feds to Nazis. News flash, if your leaders wouldn't have harbored illegals, let criminals have free reign, and turned a blind eye to massive fraud and corruption, the feds wouldn't be there in the first place. You made your bed, and now you have to lie in it! With that said, I still believe the heavy handed tactics by some of the federal officers are unwarranted. The intention is admirable, the technique leaves something less than desired. Tragic, but this is the world we now live in.

I do not support the new direction of the "America First" movement. The Nazi Germany like foreign policy of invading and conquering countries around the world, to steal resources, and in Trump's case, to make big corporations richer and abandoning regular citizens, is not what Conservative values are about.

Conservatism is about putting an end to decades of endless wars, engaging in diplomacy and respecting international laws and defending ourselves when we are attacked or if we have evidence that we're about to be attacked, it's peace through strength, Conservativism is about putting an end to the Neo con ideology of nation building and illegal occupations.

Conservativism is about caring for your fellow Americans, keeping Government out of your front yard, keeping it small, so small that you can't even tell it exists, and embracing a Christian way of life of morals.

The new direction of 'America First' is no longer aimed to see regular citizens prosper or international peace, 'America First' is now aimed to enrich oil executives and embracing the Bush/Cheney doctrine of endless wars.

The new 'America First' Policies, especially in foreign policy, is now all about catering to Trump's ego and his rich Corporate friends.

This, is something that I cannot support, President Trump and his Regime, are corporate snakes and this new 'America First', will never align to my Conservative values.