I feel You
In my sleeps
In my dreams
When I wake
When I lie...


This cold tower
Called R'lyeh
Is my jail
Feel, oh man
My dark hand
On your doom


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Graves at sea LIVE at Slims, California CA 1/11/08 (Sludge/Doom metal)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U_WYvJRulvU&list=RDU_WYvJRulvU&start_radio=1&t=19s

Draconian-Cold Heavens. 2026 Gothic Doom/Death. Sweden.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fj_Qr2eTdLo&list=RDFj_Qr2eTdLo&start_radio=1

Been an insane past few weeks,battleing on/off being sick as it warms up here,potentially going to a industrial doom metal concert but not sure yet,there was a Doom metal brunch event I was going to the day before yesterday but just was too work out from the week,still working on music and the per usual artsy things,seeing the Psycho Killer film with my best friend tommarrow,very excited....

I'm sinking more and more into one of my sleep escapism-depressions again. Everything is so discouraging and seems so hopeless....

I can barely get myself to leave the bed lately. I lack any motivation and elan to do anything.
Perpetually trapped in task paralysis.

On workdays I push myself to still give 110% despite constantly asking "what am I doing it for its not like it's fruitful for me". Work drains me so much I can't find the energy to look for new jobs after hours.
And on Weekends I am still drained and barely drag myself out of bed after sleeping for 12hr, then I end up on the couch staring into my phone screen doomscrolling, because I can't get myself to sit on my PC and look for job offers because I know there are barely any that are suitable for me. But pursuing my hobbies makes me feel guilty because "I should spend this time on looking for jobs".
So I just sit there on the couch trapped by invisible chains of guilt and discourage while I'm hoping for the unlikely miracle that a Recruiter will find my job profile and it's the perfect match for both sides. And that the world politics wills suddenly be bearable again. But with the current leaders pfft finding the Amber-room again is more likely than having a secure and happy future.
Thats why I keep asking myself: What future am even doing it for?

#VideoGames #FPS #gaming #linear #DOOM #BioShock #Metro2033 #Wolfenstein #halflife
https://gamerant.com/best-linear-fps-games-players-exhausted-of-open-world-games/

Messa-Pilgrim(2021) Italian Doom metal/Rock.
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=o6qFXKrI7Tw&list=RDo6qFXKrI7Tw&start_radio=1&pp=ygUFbWVzc2GgBwE%3D

Messa-She Knows/Tusli. (2019) Italian Doom metal/rock. One of my favorite all time artists !
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=-JbZv5eQ9yw&list=RD-JbZv5eQ9yw&start_radio=1&pp=ygUPbWVzc2Egc2hlIGtub3dzoAcB

A classic for all you doom and gloom mofos.

https://youtu.be/JTXJu6qHtd8?si=nCvCyN_WI1F9_aoI