Kinda been feeling bled dry lately and currently fleeing myself into an endless loop of doomwatching some historical documentaries post work.

I look at some upcoming events in my work and personal calendar that I've been looking forward to, and meanwhile I hear an inner voice whispering a quiet "why" to me....

I think I should take a vacation and go away... Far, far away from people

"Once the rain is over, an umbrella becomes a burden to carry. - That's why loyalty ends when benefits stop."

Yeah...
I'm experiencing that a lot. As soon as their problems are solved or they have dumped their emotional burden on me there is suddenly no time to listen to my troubles...as soon as I start sharing I'm dropped or quickly disregarded with one sentence...and people wonder why I never open up and talk about things easily...

And once they stop benefiting from me altogether the friendship dies out... I'm not just worth being kept around just for the sake of it.
It's not like I haven't been struggling with self loathing for months and my self view wasn't already ruined on many levels...

Jesus Love You

The best thing about the Main Wall Time Warp, is that @Dominicane is finally getting all his old posts read, posts that were buried by his barrage of posts, lol xD

France working with Saudi Al Qaeda Member, aL-Sharaa, is pretty pathetic, France surrendered during ww2 and now they're surrendering to Al Qaeda, lol

Syria is a terrorist State run by Al Qaeda under a Saudi Arabian "president", which is why Israel is bombing them and preventing them from using the Syrian Government's (Assad Government) assets.

Syria under Al Qaeda would not hesitate to attack France with a terrorist attack, so France shouldn't be running to them and sucking up to them.

Got Damn this Good

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