with my back turned
im back
all you sluts and foreigners
to nocho senones surprise
and2 everywons surmise
ijust happen
tobe here
unstead of there
andi donteven know
or
justeven care
im just aware
and affectious

Valentine's day? Meh. Did my nails instead.

Another day wasted by sleeping too long and then forcing myself to do chores like groceries...
I sat down to look at job offerings to at least do something useful instead of staring at my phone. Just to find that the only job offer that I had my hopes on is expired. They probably filled the position and didn't even read my application anymore. All other things I find are not in my expertise and also not in my local vicinity....
This disappointment was the last thing I needed right now. I was already in the ditch feeling burned out, abandoned and left alone with my problems. People are just too busy to care. Now I can put hopelessness right next to it on my depression Bingo card...
What an awesome start this year. And with the current political situation it will only get worse. Shit time to be alive our future is as rosy as a dumpster. I'm loosing any desire to see it.

I needed three rare figures from ebay, lucky star to complete my collection. I sent a message can I just have 3 in red. They made a new listing, the three I needed instead of the the onesI already owned, So I bought them. They just arrived, maybe there was some confusion because seller has sent the 3 I wanted and the the girls as well. Now I have two sets of lucky star figures, popped em on my monitor. I had to get them out of their body bags just not right!

I just had a meltdown in the lab...because I'm burned and spent by this shit. This company has burned me completely and I'm just a walking pile of ash. Every passing day I wish more and more that I was one of the people that were layed off or that I would have an accident break and ankle or so and get a sick leave for a few weeks. Just to catch a breath and be an unexpected gap on the personal.
It's not the stress that's getting me I actually don't think the workload is overwhelming at the moment it's average and manageable. It's the lack of pay and appreciation that bothers me. I came on Saturdays I came on Sundays gave 110% to make them see that I am worth getting the same pay as the others and instead I get a warm sweaty handshake and a chocolate I can't even eat.
And I'm still trying to give a 110 percent that I don't even have in me anymore why because of revenge because I want it to hurt heavily when I leave and I want to see them in false security about my loyalty. But I'm not even sure that's worth it...
At this point I just wish for a new job opportunity and hope the company goes bankrupt so that I can get social support. I wouldn't get that for a few months if I resigned without a new job.

If BadBunny’s singing was translated live (captioning), there would have been a bigger backlash, more ppl turning away from his show.
Just because his music had a “good beat” doesn’t mean that the lyrics are good.

This is one reason why we should teach foreign languages in high school like it was back in the day. But English should still be the main and official language of the USA.

Urghh this suuucccks!!
All day I was actually looking forward to m daily workout session because I found a cool Pilates flow im really curious to try. Guess what halfway through the workday my body said fucketh they and gave me the worst stomach cramps for no reason. Guess I'll take a long walk instead....
Although feeling sick is a good reason to rest my orthorexia demon HATES skipping why is my brain broken like this?!

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President Trump stealing from women, lol
Give that lady back her Peace Prize