Yaaayy! I'm pretty again when I smile lika a lunatic
I found a dentist who was willing to fix me tooth without appointment and he was quite skillful too! Reconstructed my tooth permanently so don't need to get a dental crown!!! Think I found my new go to dentist in town!
I know I was probably very dramatic about the whole thing....I just struggle a lot with body dismorphia and my teeth are something about me that I actually find OK, if not even pretty. So having a very visible tooth broken apart (again!) made me feel really ashamed to talk without covering my face. Also it gives a terrible lisp and I was bullied for having a slight lisp as a kid so this was anoter hit on the insecurity bingo card for me...
I'm just very particular about my teeth ok?
After all I'm short I need them to bite y'alls ankles when you piss me off :D:D:D

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Survived probably one of the busiest shifts iv'e had in a long time today. its all cold and snowy now so its bringing everyone out in droves, fingers hurt from alot of guitar practice last night so have to rest before tomorrow's practice. hoping to get more patches on the jacket and vest when i can,had some VERY interesting interactions with a few customers outside of work ,some "i'm going to try and be goth to try and fit in but im really not" girl didn't speak to me when i was talking with her and her mom i bet because she think's she's high class or something and better than me,yep....also some girl approached me after i left in the snow covered parking lot a few nights ago (by yelling at me lol) we shook hands and i introduced myself, could possibly be another relationship after idk HOW many years ? We'll see...not going to expect anything though, would be nice to not be alone again during this winter.

Logging out of work today like...
(I am totally not sorry that I will not have to deal with preparing the lab for the upcoming constructions in the next week)

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Let's see if DHL is nice enough to ring me to have the stuff delivered. Working from home for the rest of the day. No lives were taken during the creation of this post. :D

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Making a joke at another cultures expense is not racist. Habitually blaming said group for your fucked up problems, year end and year out spouting conspiracy theories demeaning and endangering said group, and becoming unhinged and eaten up with hatred towards said group is. So, sod the fuck off!

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Today really was a Terrible day. Not only did I work longer than it is legal (again). I also wasn't very focussed and did a lot of mistakes in my lab work...I don't think a blanket and c-drama will fix this day..-

I really need to dump & vent some emotions rn...humor me...
The fact that I am still very moody and don't really feel like talking to people one on one kinda contriubted to this day being shitty as lab work forces me to interact with my colleauges more than documentation. and I really don't feel like talking lately.
It's probably hard to get....While I do have a lot of things troubling me and I do need to get them off my chest, I dont have the energy nor the desire to open a 1 on 1 converstaion about it, and even less desire to talk about the world and smalltalk.
It's not like there are no people I could go to if I needed talking. There are. And I know I can go to them anytime. I just don't want to. Bc I don't want to have any interactive converstaions at the moment, if not necessary. Then I'd rahter passively dump it somewhere like here and get if off my chest. It is often not about wanting advice or needing re-assurance. It is mostly just wanting it out...
Just posting it in an anyways dead place gives me the freedom to decide on my own if and when I get advice or others opinion on it. If I need to I'll read comments, If I dont wan't to I just don't.
Is that weird??
I think I am like this because I have always been the Listeing and giving advice friend and not the sharing and wanting advice one.
I'm just used to being that way and found my ways to vent emotions...