thinkin gof how many times i have taken my shirt off, must have been over like 300000 times so far

Still hating every picture I take of myself where I don't hide in a cosplay (aka literally not being myself).... But I'm trying to convince myself to like this one....Give me a reality check...

President Trump has certainly made a fool of Mark Cuban. He said Trump doesn’t like strong, smart women around. Yet every woman DJT brings into his Admin is strong, smart & looks great. Alina Habib & Judge Jeannine keeps his winning streak going.

#dark_academia #books #book #mystery

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Took a couple hours off work so I can at least have like 18 hours of weekend instead of 12 :')

Kinda trying to relax and distract my currently really pessimistic head by tinkering a bit on some cosplays of mine.
However I'm kinda too stupid with my brush as I'm sure half the paint ends up on my body when I look at my arms atm.

If I keep this up, I'm going to accidentally cosplay that horrific purple mascot from MC-D :D

"Once the rain is over, an umbrella becomes a burden to carry. - That's why loyalty ends when benefits stop."

Yeah...
I'm experiencing that a lot. As soon as their problems are solved or they have dumped their emotional burden on me there is suddenly no time to listen to my troubles...as soon as I start sharing I'm dropped or quickly disregarded with one sentence...and people wonder why I never open up and talk about things easily...

And once they stop benefiting from me altogether the friendship dies out... I'm not just worth being kept around just for the sake of it.
It's not like I haven't been struggling with self loathing for months and my self view wasn't already ruined on many levels...

You know that feeling when all of a sudden you just feel depressed for no reason although you felt OK before?
Like someone flipped a switch inside you?