i was sittin on a lovely bench last night
looked to my right
a couple of guys
and one ems wife
all drinkin smokin cigarettes
on the saturday night
i was thinkin
about how i had nothing but
a light
one em walked over to the trashcan
next to me and dropped his half beer in and gave me a grin
well it wasnt a grin but it was some kind of look
as i looked at the beer i would have gladly took
fall down
just no consideration
man down man down

as he walked back
he mumbled something about how "its just a beer, cant even throw a beer away, """"

i thought maybe he assumed i was an environmental nut
scoffing at a bottle not being
recycled

i had had enough
time to move on
i get up and they are blocking my way

i judge the go around
no fucking way
i got all night but not all day


i move to walk through
the group of three
two men standing
much bigger than me
the woman sitting alone laughing
on the bench made for three

the man in the middle stops laughing and looks at me
i gesture because i just want to walk by
and he asks me
"do you got a problem?"
all my problems surface in my mind and i sigh
as i know ill tell him
every goddamn one

and i realize this is just an alpha thing and these alphas are drunk
they want to fight someone
but me seriously
do they think
that i think
im bruce fucking lee

i just hold up the crumpled cigarette i had found on the ground
and ask if i could have one of theres they had been passing around

the man says to the woman on the bench
oh he just needs a light
although he heard me wrong
it sounded for a second
we might get along
and she looks over and sees the lighter in my other hand
and tells the man
he has a light
and he looks at me
and i clarify
for my habit justice and peace

as all three take a moment looking at me
i notice the pause
and the man says no
and like someone pressed play
the woman took her hand out of her purse
and they all stayed quiet
looking at me

the end
and not the end

happy birthday

If i make time my Enemy then im really in trouble

My new clock arrived a 30 day key wind wall clcok. It needs a clean and overhall, got it cheap as seller said chime wont chime on time on the correct hour. All you need to do is set the hour forward or back its only the minute hand that cannot move back lol. I love my 1910 Seikosha wall clock but being so old she needs constaint attention. These modern clocks don't.

When that one friend who sees you as free therapist asks you for a call in the evening and now you are considering doin overtime on a job you currently don't enjoy...

what do i want?
many things+love.

i want to fly
i want to bug
to ask questions and cuddle up
in a moment with you
in tune with you


do i want you to read me bukowski? yes . pleasedo

im not perfect
im flawed as fuck
sometimes i want to be a duck
but i do listen
and i hear and feel everything
i am human

Will A.I. affect your job or career?

Is Universal Income a real fear?

Is it time to buy goats and chickens yet?

Nines_Rodriguez One thing is for certain with us Generation X. The older we get, people we love, the vibe, the aesthetic, the music may fade away, but time can't take away the memories and especially, the carefree and joyous days of youth.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NB5DWbDaaIY

Do you know that feeling when, after a good time, the world comes crashing down even harder than expected?
I wish it were just the blues after one of the best times I've ever had, but somehow the shit just keeps piling up every day.

Not only do I have a lot of work to do, but I also have to compensate for three people, and instead of support, I only get statements that downplay the actual workload, and I just end up angry, exhausted, and “done” with my job.

On top of that, there is a current family disaster that I am currently unable to deal with mentally, so I am completely withdrawing.
Unfortunately, it is so severe that it completely paralyzes me.
I want to be there for my family, but I can't.
My head is screaming to escape, but I don't know where to go anymore.
With every breath I take, it feels as if the air is made of lead.