I'm on the verge of crying. I'm literally panicking. Another health issue came up that needs immediate medical procedure. This that gives me the worst anxiety on multiple levels...if I'm unlucky it will not only make me really ugly and I struggle with dismorphia, but also also what I fear most, it will delay my treatment yet again... possibly for several weeks. I finally got a fixed appointment for getting the blood drawn for testing first thing but now I fear the new issue can't wait and needs to be fixed immediately there is akute pain....they probably can't test my blood if there is residual narcotics and painkillers on my system....
Like my anxiety was not already bad since yesterday for other reasons. Now this...I'm really panicking right now. Why is it all breaking at once??

Ok I need to breathe and wait se how bad the pain gets today prepare for being incapacitated by meds while I still can and if I get worse I go to the doctor tomorrow first thing. Good thing I live right next door. Maybe it just got painful because I was feeling the swelling I know I shouldn't drag it out and fix acute things immediately. But the following issues of delayed treatment will be detrimental too possibly reshaping my future entirely.

#blackwash #reverse_racism #Leftism

Remember the intense legacy media coverage and outrage? Remember the protests?

Me neither.

Lately, When I express my genuine thoughts and concerns, it feels like a form of punishment.

This happens both at work, in meetings where input is supposedly valued, and in my personal life. My attempts to voice a concern or a different perspective are often dismissed as pessimism, exaggeration, or even egomania. It seems I am being penalized simply for having an opinion and for caring enough to be concerned.

Increasingly, I feel that I am being passively silenced—not with a direct command, but with subtle cues and reactions that make thinking feel like a forbidden act. I am being reduced to a sounding board, a wall for others to shout at, with no expectation of a reciprocal conversation. My role is not to contribute, but to absorb.

And then, people wonder. They wonder why I am burning out, why my energy and creativity have evaporated, why my motivation has dwindled to nothing. They don't see the cumulative weight of being silenced.
I notice that the situation is gradually affecting my body. I currently only sleep with a tight chest and painful breathing, and I wake up in the middle of the night with my heart racing.

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Watching multiple videos of people freak out about getting neither Section 8, SNAP or EBT.

I have nothing against people who deserve it, but we all know that the abuse is at least 50% of the people on it THAT DO NO QUALIFY...Illegals, healthy and young people, people on it for like 10-20-30 years and perpetual women with multiple children getting pregnant only to stay on the dole.

Not all obviously, but quite a few.

Is Trump doing it to cause panic and crime in order to smash hard and get more power?

Hippies are often anti-war and anti-consumerism. Punks are often anarchist/anti-capitalist (but the Punk subculture varies far more as some are on the Left and some are on the Right). How would you define the Goth subculture nowadays?

the cellarspace thatholdsme

Dude…..smh, no
https://x.com/joeroganhq/status/1981692145594740840