More music in the works,honoring to be creating a new song later this week when I have the time. Been working on some art stuff as well between trips to to the clinic. I finally got results back,and they are negative. Looking forward to starting sewing up again soon and working on my new jacket.

Tried Alien Earth. Why did it start with a ship that looks exactly like the Nostromo? Do something original you retards. Had to stop after that. Modern movies suck.

I made a decision to go back a generation and cancle all my music streaming services and just use CD's again, ya know own the media you consume. I picked up a Hitachi mini hifi. These were very stylist when I was a wee jewlet. I has dual input aux for pc, phone/mp3 player and can read MP3 CD's. Cannot wait to clean it up, service it and put in place by my PC at home.

#music #beach #noir #exotic
https://youtu.be/gTDQGZufZHU?list=RDgTDQGZufZHU

Nothing is worse for a highly intelligent and gifted person to be under-challenged and underwhelmed....

Today, I came home from work crying because I realised how underchallenged and boring my work currently is. My expertise is currently not being used because customer projects come in slow and don't get to the downstream processing/purification part (I'm a specialist for protein pruification). I don't get many other opportunities to show my skills and knowledge and only do some minor backup tasks like writing working instructions...Nothing about my work currenly feels rewaring and chellengeing. I am a scientist, I love the try and error and the challenge! I thrive in that. I literally work best with stress and being overloaded with work than with being underwhelmed...
On top of it I'm gettin really bad imposter syndrome because of not being able to show my expertise while my colleagues currenlty thrive and get ever opportunity to show their knowledge and expert fields. We got a new teamlead in march and so far I feel like I could not show off/prove my skille and knowledge to him while the others could. I feel like I'm standing in the shadows sometimes even being actively pushed back into them. Like a tool put in a shelf not neede for now collecting dust.
It's incredibly frustrating and deressing for me because I am a scientist by heart I love my profession...

Now my overthinking brain gets even to the point where I'm asking myself if they are boring me out on purpose, so I leave the company on my own accord and they don't have to fire me, because they can't without a reason....
I'm more and more thinking of actually looking for a different posititon... Maybe I'll apply for a pHD after all...

https://youtu.be/jPpV2TzEbv0?si=JjDXV6e0YJ0Dh7DR
We should all know that the green tshirt man who has massive amounts of Nazis in his country, Also known as Zelensky did this by setting it up, and he even wanted the US and Russia to blame each other.