You know that feeling of being scared to be happy even for a brief moment? Because that sensation when your happy little world crashes down and wrenches your entire gut and closes your thoat is the worst. And the bad always seems to come smashing down when you've just started floating again. So you avoid the crash by any cost. just not allowing youself to float up with happiness again. If everything remains in shambles maybe the bad won't come because ther is nothing left to shatter...
But sometimes you are dumb and faint glitter of hope makes you think maybe I'll try floating again maybe this time it won't crash. But it will.
Just one call and a nice and relaxed weekend that finally cheered me up a bit, became the start of probably the most difficult time I'll have to face...
I'm trueley terrified of whats ahead...

No wonder kids today are scared of their own shadow. In my day we'd suffer third degree burns from the slide and there was no foam mat or soft wood chips at the end. Straight up asphalt or concrete littered with broken glass and used syringes. That's the way it was and we liked it!!!

#littering #litter #BreakingBad #WalterWhite #Heisenberg #antilittering #campaign #NewMexico #BryanCranston
https://youtu.be/9p_k1k6fDQQ

I feel like the last few ysars ive lost so many people all those closest and dearest to me theyre litterally all gone now :'( dont think my heart can take anymore and feel like the life has been sucked out of me

Blood and glitter, sweet and bitter
We're so happy we could die
Blood and glitter, saint and sinner
We do fall before we rise
https://youtu.be/wokm00SDgjc

I just bought a whole lot of gems and glitter, and I’m gonna be making some new costumes and props for an upcoming music video. Shoot soon!

linktree.com/XZanthia​​

#grungeaesthetic #anime #metalgirl #rave #artist #alternativestyle #gothmodel #altfashion
#raver #cosplayer #ravergirl #cosplaygirl

I just bought a whole lot of gems and glitter, and I’m gonna be making some new costumes and props for an upcoming music video. Shoot soon!

linktree.com/XZanthia​​

#grungeaesthetic #anime #metalgirl #rave #artist #alternativestyle #gothmodel #altfashion
#raver #cosplayer #ravergirl #cosplaygirl

Guess who got their heart broken again I'm litterally thinking I should leave finding someone for a long time now

Dearest [laurababy134]

It is with great despair that I write this publicly, but I feel instantly betrayed by your actions

My heart leapt for joy when you choose me out of the many users to message and ask to discuss a matter in private. I had the perfect scenario laid out. Barry White playing in the background, the half drunk bottle of champagne sat in the lukewarm air and the cheap haribo replica looking wedding ring hidden among a half eaten punnet of strawberries

However, my heart was broken when I saw you were posting the same copy and paste message to everyone else here

Therefore, we have nothing to discuss except how you have broken my heart and how I now have to tell my eccentric great aunt Mildred that I have not found a worthy wife in order to inherit her vast fortune when she passes away from years of smoking

Yours sincerely
Chunk

P. S. It wasn't a replicated ring, I just painted a standard haribo ring gold and sprayed it with glitter