1 person
i want to hear from
1 place i want to go
the rest of it can fuck off
thats the deal
take it or leave it
ill let it go

You guys see that hallmark movie about that woman that hates that guy and they end up together? Me neither. They should make one about a woman and man that are perfect together and love each other and end up killing each other. Id watch that. Thats at least something different.

BERKS WEATHER ALERT—Please... - Reading-Berks Hotdog Society https://share.google/0bF7RUJIqfMozv8dd


Now thats a weather report!

im back. letmejust say
it would be reallyhelp full
ifi could have
ai do all my social interaction 4me
my target capacity
is room for exactly 1.12 people in my life
i think most would agree thats more than jenerous

So instead of ranting on whats in my head I am going to go another way with this lol. Remember who is there for you, do not hate the ones who arent but know not to count on them again. Yes life can be difficult but each day is a new one WITH a chance for a better one tomorrow. No you do NOT have to forgive people and tell them that you forgive them you can simply forgive them and move on for your OWN peace. Dont gotta say shit to them. Be you, be happy, be authentic and dont let anyone tell you who you are because 99% of the time those who complain about who you are have no clue who they are.

Hows this place getting on im curious as ive been logged off whats new here ? 🤔

You know that feeling of being scared to be happy even for a brief moment? Because that sensation when your happy little world crashes down and wrenches your entire gut and closes your thoat is the worst. And the bad always seems to come smashing down when you've just started floating again. So you avoid the crash by any cost. just not allowing youself to float up with happiness again. If everything remains in shambles maybe the bad won't come because ther is nothing left to shatter...
But sometimes you are dumb and faint glitter of hope makes you think maybe I'll try floating again maybe this time it won't crash. But it will.
Just one call and a nice and relaxed weekend that finally cheered me up a bit, became the start of probably the most difficult time I'll have to face...
I'm trueley terrified of whats ahead...

I'm sinking more and more into one of my sleep escapism-depressions again. Everything is so discouraging and seems so hopeless....

I can barely get myself to leave the bed lately. I lack any motivation and elan to do anything.
Perpetually trapped in task paralysis.

On workdays I push myself to still give 110% despite constantly asking "what am I doing it for its not like it's fruitful for me". Work drains me so much I can't find the energy to look for new jobs after hours.
And on Weekends I am still drained and barely drag myself out of bed after sleeping for 12hr, then I end up on the couch staring into my phone screen doomscrolling, because I can't get myself to sit on my PC and look for job offers because I know there are barely any that are suitable for me. But pursuing my hobbies makes me feel guilty because "I should spend this time on looking for jobs".
So I just sit there on the couch trapped by invisible chains of guilt and discourage while I'm hoping for the unlikely miracle that a Recruiter will find my job profile and it's the perfect match for both sides. And that the world politics wills suddenly be bearable again. But with the current leaders pfft finding the Amber-room again is more likely than having a secure and happy future.
Thats why I keep asking myself: What future am even doing it for?

Thats why i love Lilith she represents Ressurection & Justice

[Jessy] and [Lobotomy] this, interesting read, might be a good argument to bring it back, but then again, it might also be a detrimental effort….
https://allthatsinteresting.com/insane-asylums