Wow what a shitty End for a vacation. Successfully ruined another persons day again just by trying to open up and share my fears and emotions in hopes to clear my anxiety that I had since yesterday...
But noo triggered somewhat of a fight and anxiety for the other side too.
Aaaaaand thats why I usually bottle things up. When I talk about it I piss people off or make them sad and that worsens my anxiety. Even when I thought hard about how I say it and what I say, it always goes down the wrong pipe and ends with the worst outcome...
Why do I even try again ana again it always ends in disappointment: either I'm a bad trigger or I'm as important as fucking chairs. After all im only good for listening not for talking about feelings. I just muck things up...

I feel like such a human failure...

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Wow I am amazed the UK Poilice solved a crime in the last 15 years that wasn't hate speech on twitter or facebook. Colour me impressed. That said it still took em 50 years to catch em but a win is a win.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UyxVsPWggzE

Wow this feed is dead, I think its only Obsolescence and me keeping this place alive. I've seen more activity in a nursing home!

WoW that new "Show" Recent Updates shows me posts from 8 days and older..... *golfclaps*

Wow I was oddly productive this evening. I finished up the last touches on that wig, tidied up my studio, and finished 2 small paintings that I had lying around unfinished for a year or so...All all of that despite barely being able to stay awake at work :D
I guess it is time to pass out now...

wow, after WEEKS I finally have half a mind to do something on the sewing machine again...
Has it always been this dusty? :D