with my back turned
im back
all you sluts and foreigners
to nocho senones surprise
and2 everywons surmise
ijust happen
tobe here
unstead of there
andi donteven know
or
justeven care
im just aware
and affectious

This is so discourageing! Of all the job offers that I can find none are Jobs that I would actually wanna take if I actually did get the offer, because all require commuting over an hour or moving to I city that I would never wanna live in. This is just downright depressing! In the past 3 weeks I have not even seen one offer that was in my current location or even close by. I just want a new job not an entire life re-orientation!

It is just so sad that we live in such a career-driven double standard society where it is totally normalized that as a young person, you HAVE to be ready give up your ENTIRE LIFE and the place you picked to be your home ANYTIME to find a new job. But on the same time you are expected to be ready to settle and have a family from 30 onwards. And with a family you are often still required to move your entire family to a new place for a new job and it's totally normalized!

And overall economy is just shit and the field I work in is not doing well despite the fact that it was flourishing during the pandemic.

I blame everything on Merz at this point because I need a scapegoat to vent my anger!

Total Freedom or none. Choose https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s4v7CgYY8Z8&list=RDs4v7CgYY8Z8&start_radio=1

sneak peak to my second Black Metal song i call it
Ghost Kitty

Verse 1:

Ghost kitty sightless kitty,little ball of soul,peaceful kitty touch-less kitty meow meow meow
Stalking around our present world a little ball of spirit eyeing from the past,
sweet little soul happy and bounding from tree to grass,
a little ghost cat with fur in spirit and silhouetted paws and deleted whiskers

Ghost kitty sightless kitty,little ball of soul,peaceful kitty touch-less kitty meow meow meow
one can claw with invisible weapons,kitty can touch our world but none can touch hers,
history behind eyes of bright peaceful in its eternity,forevermore little kitty will meow

Ghost kitty sightless kitty,little ball of soul,peaceful kitty touch-less kitty meow meow meow
The hunt will never end for you ghost kitty peace in purrs and glory in mute,meow out your sweet melody
in little meows and cries, enjoy the eyes of the afterlife rest in peace little brave soul
forevermore meowing into eternity,
Ghost kitty sightless kitty,little ball of soul,peaceful kitty touch-less kitty meow meow meow

I hear No voices at ALL None. BUTT! Im a Vision Thang THING!!!!!

I just hate learning new apps and sites none of Wich are EVER created user friendly I just don't get how this site works!

"Kanonenfieber - Der Maulwurf" https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7f8N0UQAZF0