Im thinking of quitting inktober (yet again) before i even really started on it. Idk just the thought of planning and actually making an ink drawing every day stresses me out. Although it was something that I easily did in the past. Even multiple ones a day... I think it's because of not having as much time to invest in art anymore I kinda lost my connection to it. I rarely get to sit down to actually paint. Every year I start the inktober challeng in hope to get my connection back but every time for the past 3 years I end up having to quit halfway through for multiple reasons like getting behind lacking time. This year I'm already stressed about having to catch up on the first few days that I missed.
Maybe I just had a bad start...I wanted to warm up by finishing one of least years works that I never got to complete and I totally messed it up and on top it tore apart when I tried to remove the one year old masking tape... Seems like an omen...
I will still dedicate this month to art and especially watercolor painting. But I think I will not do the inktober challenge for now. Maybe I will get to do the last half of it later but just now I need to get back into the peaceful/mindful mindset that I need for doing watercolor. Pushing myself with a challenge will not help here.
I started watching YouTube draw with me videos of one of my favorite artists there. It helps getting back into watercolors and Inks.

More Halloween wallpapers #heyfreak #gothic

Hallowed Butchery. Album came out a few years ago,but this promo vid is one of my favorites,one of the best doom metal bands in existence: https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=QaPa04_xV8g&pp=ygURaGFsbG93ZWQgYnV0Y2hlcnk%3D

I like Halloween as much as the next goth, but I'm not going to water it down or sweeten it up a bit. It's a day for evil, the day when the veil between the living and the dead is at its thinnest. Demons be praised and devils be raised! Now give me some old school candy and forever be cursed!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S-oH2bsfe2k

Halloween costumes to avoid this year. A late night talk show host, anything that represents an ethnic group other than a beer drinking xenophobic good ol' boy red-blooded 'Murican, and last but not least...Mr. Green Jeans from Captain Kangaroo. Show some respect. He's only been dead for 38 years!

Im dressing as doctor doom fir halloween. Im being doctor doom for the rest of my life.

Halloween wallpaper #heyfreaks

For how Long shall we give our Gratitude until it Matterd

You always twist my neck & my Spine. It goes on & on & on

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rpPqIy86L1w&list=RDq_fRVtcQq2k&index=16