Somehow it has become hard for me to enjoy my socia shutdown alone time. Sometimes I just need to recharge my social batteries and shut myself in for a weekend doing things I enjoy alone like painting and sewing. And sometimes I need several weekends on a row.. But lately I often feel guilty doing this. Today too...Especially if others have asked if I wanna do something or join a get together. Even if they are understanding bc they are also introverted and get it. I feel like they just said it to be nice but are actually upset and think that I am selfish...
But a the same time I hate not having so much time for my hobbies anymore so I look forward to be able to spend an entire weekend on them. Is it selfish to prioritize this over social interactions? I have picked up all these hobbies in the past as way fix the loneliness I experienced for always being the odd one with very little friends. Now I love art more than people because it was always there for me when people weren't. I think thats why it makes me feel guilty now that there are people who want to spend time with me.
Lately I have been struggleing with this thought a lot...but I really need to recharge in order to not completely explode or break down.

Why is an almost dead social media site ‘invitation only’ with no way for most people to join outside of personally knowing the the one guy who still bothers to post? Seems suicidally stupid.

This is MC Dreidel spinning some tracks for you this New Year's Eve. So, break out the Molly, glow sticks, and mentholated joint cream and shake your tootsies!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rKqZx8H5wPA

"To ensure a high-quality experience for everyone, we’re now accepting new members by invitation only. If you have friends who are interested in joining, please send them an invite email. Each member is allowed to have 20 invites per month. We look forward to welcoming passionate and engaged new members to HF! To generate invite codes, please go to your profile settings and click on "Invitations""

The new version of "Shit hits the fan" is "Hamsters joined the Space Marines"

The invitation thing is a good idea, but I tried to get a few hard hitters from the VF message board to join 5 years ago and they flat out refused. One even took a gander at who was posting and active and said, "Fuck no and the horse you rode in on!" Makes you feel kinda proud, doesn't it?

Hit that follow button and join the journey!
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Honey wake up, a new schizoid just joined HeyFreaks.

My 1 year lasting project of transforming the whole floor into meeting room area and setting the Logitech equipment that was shipped to us for that purpose is finally coming to an end. I can't feel more accomplished than I already am. Seeing this is my first time I actually tackled such a huge project it's even more rewarding to know that everything works thanks to me. I'm tired now.
Seeing how this place looks now compared to how it looked a year ago when I first joined the company is beautiful...